I wake up and put on regulation clothes, regulation black shoes, regulation hat and jacket and bag. I walk into the bathroom, brush my teeth with regulation mint toothpaste, comb my hair with a plain white hairbrush, and stare at my face. Plain, green, an Asian nose and large eyes, bangs falling in my eyes. I’m normal. Quite, quite normal. I’m not pretty, I have some blemishes, I’m boring.
But they don’t know my secret. They don’t know where I’m from, what I’ve done, what I am.
They don’t know who I am. They don’t know that I left behind a life and traded it up. They don’t know what I’m here to do. I am here to blend in. I am here to find Luke and to feel safe.
But my secret is huge enough. If they knew, I’d be killed. I escaped one settlement and traded it for a nation, an empire.
And I got out, for a little while, lived free and saw a free city.
One thing to know about me. I really am calm. I am the calm before the storm.
Luke, I will swim across a thousand seas to reach you. I will find a way to fly if it means I can see you again. I won’t leave you, ever. You taught me to love, and love is something you can never lose, even if someone tries to take it away.
Now I know pain. And I am better for it. Now I know love. And I am better for it. Now I know life, and how it's supposed to be, and I will get it back to that. I will get it back to you, Luke.
I have a secret, and they can never take that away, despite all of their regulations and rules.
And I will make those rules disappear, even if it is the last thing I ever do…
