Leigh's P.O.V
Sometimes you just have to stop and think about everything that's happened. Not just live it once and move on, or as they say live in the moment. Sometimes it's good to step back, and relive, remininsce, whatever you want to call it on the things that have already happened.
Now I think it's my time to do just that.
I got up off of the couch, and walked upstairs to my room. I just lay there on my bed thinking about my life these past couple of weeks. I started talking to Ryder again, he asked me out on a date, he kissed the top of my head at the movies yesterday. He didn't think I noticed, but I did. Just thinking about Ryder makes me get butterflies in my stomach. I know, I know, how cliche, but it's true. I can't help it. He's just so I don't know cute. Yeah, cute. That works.
No Leigh! You can't think like that.
Oh who am I kidding. I don't just like my best friend. I'm in love with him. There's really no denying it. I try to play it off like I don't on the outside, but on the inside I'm like a lovesick puppy.
I have this constant battle with my heart and my head. My heart is telling me to go for it, and my head is trying to talk me out of it. I don't see why? Ryder is a great guy. He's smart, funny, kind, and caring towards other people. I guess it's the whole he's my best friend thing. That can make a difference. I'm honestly so conflicted and confused it's ridiculous. Monica said for me to give him a second chance, but I honestly don't know if I can.
A knock on my door not only removed me from my thoughts, but also scared me half to death.
"Come in!"
"Hey Leigh. Dinner's ready." My mom said as she poked her head in.
"Thanks mom. I'll be down in a minute."
"You okay Leigh? You seem a little down lately."
"Yeah I'm okay. Just a little confused is all."
"You want to talk about it?"
"I just don't know what to do. My heart says one thing, and my head says another."
"Oh. That old battle. Let me guess. It's Ryder."
"How'd you know?"
"I'm your mother Leigh. It's not that hard to figure it out. I see the way he looks at you, and the way you look at him. I may be old Leigh, but I'm not blind."
"I just don't know what to do. We've been friends for so long, and I don't want to ruin it."
"What about those few years you two didn't talk? Didn't that make a difference?"
"Not really. When we started talking again a couple of weeks ago, everything just kind of bounced back."
"There was no awkward silence, or tension at all."
"No. Everything was like how it used to be. It was comfortable, and it felt like we were kids again."
"I don't know what to tell you Leigh. Ultimately the decision is yours. I can't make the choice for you. It's something you're going to have to choose on your own."
"I wish somebody could. Being a teenager is hard."
"Unfortunately I can't. All I can do is guide you in the direction of the path that I think is right. Now perk up. Being a teenager isn't all bad. These are supposed to be some of the best years of your life. Make them count."
"What path do you think is right then?"
"Why don't you tell me." Mom said with a slight smirk on her face.
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Outside Looking In
Teen FictionLeigh Jennings is starting to fall head over heals in love with her best friend Ryder Kelly. In their Senior year of high school, Leigh starts to gain courage to tell Ryder how she feels, but he can't give her the time day. He's the star jock at Kin...
