Somehow

when you (really) approached me

it was not long after the moment in the library. you replied to my anger-releasing post.

i wrote;

since you treat me like a game, i'll show you how we play.

you replied,

"then show me."

till this very day, as i am sitting in a chair, additional mathematics homework sprawled in front of me but i won't touch it, i still don't have any idea why would you replied that.

you sent me that text weeks before the one you said i am beautiful. much to my own dismay, i thought, i didn't see it.

when i finally saw it, i pretended i didn't see it.

i just didn't know what to reply. i couldn't get in your head and see what you meant. and till this day, i'm in a confused daze.