5sos Imagines/doctor imagines \discontinued/

Your always isn't forever (brother!Luke)

Warning involves self harm, if you are triggered by this please stop reading this chapter.

another day another cut, endless bullying, taunts and snares. nothing worth it anymore. I add more cuts, hoping to feel something other than deadness.

luke hadn't been home for a long time. which means I'm alone with my thoughts. let's just say my thoughts are dark. over the years the constant insults and slurs had gotten to my head.

when luke was here I stopped but he left me here, so I went back to it. sorta like a comfort blanket. he would hate me if he ever found out. everyone would. I can't lose the boys they're my only family.

I was brought out of my thought when I cut a little too deep. huge amounts of blood came rushing out, more it should have.

I didn't know what to do I needed help, fast. I went to my only option.

"911, what is your emergency,"

"I need help," I cried pain being worse.

"Where are you ma'am?" the operator asked. 

"468 Prichard rd," I managed to say before passing out.

When I woke up I was in hospital room. I had bandages on my arms and an iv. Great, just great.

Why did I call 911 I could have died and never worried about the bullying ever again.

"Y/n," I heard Luke's voice.

"Luke," I couldn't look at him. I didn't want to see the disappointment on his face. Or the anger.

"Y/n please look at me," I could hear his voice breaking.

This is why I wanted to die. So I wouldn't keep hurting people. And here yet again I've hurt people.

"Luke I can't look at you because then I would see how much I've hurt you," I started to cry. As usual I let my feeling get the best of me.

I felt his thumb and index finger lift my chin up. Now I was looking at him.

"Yes you've hurt me, but I've already forgiven you,"

"Luke, please don't ever leave me," I burst into tears.

He got up out of the cheap hospital chair and wrapped his arms around me. He was gentle, trying not to hurt me more than I was.

"I will never ever leave you y/n remember that,"