5sos Imagines/doctor imagines \discontinued/

my angel (Ashton)

Requested by: @shannon1300

Tonight marks two months I've been without my love. its been hell without her with me. when I wasn't on tour we never left each other's side. she's the first person I've ever felt this way about. I've had other girlfriends but I never loved them like I love her. we've been together for 2 years it will be 3 in a few days. I count down the days even if I won't be with her on our anniversary.

I think about her like a pass time. whenever I try to focus she comes into my mind, like a plague I just resist. one that I don't want to resist. I smile whenever I do think about her, I remember her smile, her laugh, her loving nature.

I decide to text her instead of saddening myself thinking about her.

ASHTON
Hey baby, hows your day going

Shannon
Hi Ashy it's going okay I just miss you

ASHTON
You have no idea how much I just want to hug and kiss you right now.

Shannon
I think I do because I think about doing that every day

ASHTON
I'm sorry babe I have to go the boys need me in rehearsals. ill call you when I get done with the show tonight

Shannon
Okay bye Ash

I read her last message then shut my phone, as usual, I was late but I didn't care, nothing really mattered if I was talking to Shannon. I was often told off by management or the boys. they know how I was feeling, well Michael and Luke do, because of Crystal and Sierra. they knew how to handle being without their love but I don't. I got used to her being around me all the time and I just miss it now.

"Hey man we have to go," Luke said as he knocked on my hotel room door.

"Alright I'll be down in a minute," I say, trying to focus on what I was doing.

When I had put on a pair of grey sweats and a neon orange tour hoodie I looked at myself in the mirror. I had bags under my eyes, my hair was messy. I had to stop thinking about her.

I had managed to push Shannon out of my mind for the rehearsal. We have been trying to nail preforming wildflower live, but it was proofing harder than I thought.

We would do anything for our fans. And that includes yelling in frustration every time one of us messed up a harmony.

"Guys we've almost got it, let's just focus in and try not to fuck it up this time," Michael said into his mike. He was the most pissed. Because he was the one that was getting most of it right.

All in all it was a bad rehearsal. My drum kit broke. Luke's mike stand somehow broke in half. Michael dropped his guitar and broke a string. In the middle of a song the speakers stoped working.

We pushed threw it still. Now it was time for the show and I was pumped.

I jumped around backstage. Song a few songs. Just got in the groove of things.

"Hello New York, thank you for coming to the meet you there tour," Luke yelled at the audience. Loud screams loud screams irrupt  from the audience as a response.

"Alright as you know we've had a rough start to this year but we've pushed through. I'm so grateful for everything coming and supporting us. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts," I said when it was mine turn to talk. My smile was wide as I looked out into the crowd.

The screaming, the happiness, the euphoria of this place. It all was amazing.

"This next song we're going to play is one of our new songs off of calm it's called best years," Luke said noticing that I had stopped.

"Me and my girlfriend at the time, now fiancé wrote this one," he finished, then immediately started playing it.

There wasn't much drumming in the song, so I just sat and let the music drag me in.

"You did all these things for me when I was half a man for you,"

I thought of her. How could I not.

"I'll give you the best years," Luke's voice held so much passion.

Before I knew it tears appeared in my eyes. All I could think about is how much I miss Shannon.

I sang my heart out to the song.

I didn't care if anyone saw.

"Man that was a great show," Michael said as we entered the tour bus.

We all agreed. Unlike rehearsal we actually performed the songs perfectly and the fans loved it.

"I think I'm going to go to bed," I said. As much as I wanted to celebrate with the guys about an amazing show I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to do it without feeling down.

"Are you sure Ash, we have champagne," calum shook the bottle.

"Yea I'm good thank you though, night y'all," I smiled as best I could before crashing into my bed.

"Goodnight ash," the said one after the other.

Lukes POV

this was by far the nicest thing we've ever done for Ashton.

We flew out Shannon so they could spend a few days together. Ashton lately has been feeling homesick and missing her a lot. I mean a lot. We understand. It's happened to all of us.

"Are you sure this is a good idea he seems like he's sleeping," Shannon whispered.

We all nodded. he needed this.

"Hey ash we have a surprise for you," we all said.

"I don't want it go away," he grumbled into his pillow.

"Fine Shannon lets go," I said starting to walk away.

"Wait Shannon, baby your here," he probably jumped out of his skin with excitement.

"I've. Missed. You. So. Much.," he kissed her face in between each word.

"I've missed you too ashy," she smiled at him.

"I love you,"

"I love you too,"

I'm back, I hope you liked it :)
4/7/2020