since the 5th grade

Chapter 10

"I won't tell anyone... but I need to tell you something." He says fiddling with his hands. "Do you know remember when you asked me earlier today why my lip and cheek was like this?" He asks me.

"Yeah." I say nodding.

"And when Luke kissed you earlier today..." He says.

My heart starts to race. "Who told you about that?" I nearly yell.

"He did and you know who gave me this bruise and split lip? Luke did. Do you know why? Because I got mad at him for playing with your feelings like that. Julie... That kiss was a dare..." He tells me.

"What?" My voice cracks.

People always complained that I saw the world in such a perspective and even though I was sorry, it was my duty to take the world for what it is and what it makes of me, since everyone else decided to not see the bad in the world. What Ashton had just told me gave me another reason to see the world from a dark perspective.

Why did I have to fall in love so hard. Right now I would rather fall off a bridge. I would probably be happier and it would probably hurt less.

She needed a hero, so she became her own.

He needed power, so he became a villian.

But you know what they said, every hero needs a villain, and Luke was my villain.

"I'm sorry, but I didn't want to keep that from you. You don't deserve to be lied too, you deserve so much better..." Ashton says.

Both anger and sadness fills my body. More sadness and anger than when I saw some skanks at school flirting with Luke. They liked him, but I loved him.

It was crazy how wrong you could be about a person.

"You know what Ashton?" I say.

"Huh?"

"I know you would be so much better than Luke." I say climbing onto his lap.

"But you said-"

"I don't care what I said before. I wasn't thinking straight. Luke's an asshole and you're such a sweetheart and you know what you said... it's only us, it's only now." I whisper into his kneck.

"I-I just don't want you to regret this." He tells me.

"I won't." I say pulling my top over my head, leaving me in just my bra.

Ashton stares at me both in shock and awh.

He looks at the cuts covering my arms.

"You're so beautiful." He whispers.

I slam my lips onto his and before I knew it I felt something hard under me.

"I've wanted this for so long." Ashton groans.

"Mhhm." I say into his mouth.

"You happen to take my breath away, every time I see you, you know that." He tells me breaking the kiss. "Loving you, Julie, is the best and most exiting way of self destruction."

I couldn't help but feel bad. I just didn't like Ashton like that.

"Can we talk about that later." I say rather rudely.

"Okay." He says back. I guess he didn't notice the hint of rudeness in my voice since he was getting horned up.

He makes me lay on the bed then unzips my jean, pulling them down to my ankles.

"You wouldn't happen to be a virgin?" He asks me. "I just don't want to hurt you, if you are."

"I am." I say kind of embarrassed.

He nods before removing my panties and throwing them onto the floor. Before I could even blink, Ashton already has his lips down on my sex, and my moan echoes through the room.

"You're going to have to be a bit more quiet." He giggles.

I nod as he finishes me off and again before I could even blink he sticks one, long finger into me. I wince as he sticks the second one in and starts pumping in and out, while rubbing my clit with his thumb.

I try to keep my moans in, but a small one magages to escape.

"I think you're ready." He smirks.

My heart starts to race. How bad would it really hurt? Oh my god, the bleeding. That would be so embarrassing.

Ashton removes his skinny jeans, his bulge clear through his tight boxers. He roles a condom on and slathers it up with lube.

"Again, are you sure?" He asks me, looking me dead in the eyes.

I nod, not trusting my voice at this point.

He slides it in slowly, pushing it in deeper with each thrust. I could see the sweat dripping down his forehead from the effort he was putting in to not hurt me.

The pain was horrible, worst than I could imagine, but mixed with the pleasure, it wasn't that bad.

Ashton removed my bra with one hand while he left wet and sloppy kisses all over my chest.

Before I knew it I felt all of Ashton in me, making me let out a not so loud scream. I squirm under him, feeling very uncomfortable and sore as he pulled out.

He thrusts into me a few more times.

I finally get used to the feeling of him in me so Ashton quickens his pace.

"Yeah... Yeah...Yes." He moans.

"I'm close." He says pounding into me a few more times before he releases into the condom.

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MY VIRGIN EYES.

THERE YOU GUYS GO, YOU GUYS WANTED SMUT, THERE YOU HAVE IT.

im sorry if it wasn't that good. its just really early right now and im not really, you know, good at writing smut in the mornings. but ayye im usually amazing at writing smut so look forward to more smut in the future ;)

btw if you want to get the full smut effect, you could listen to the 5sos moan audio (http://8tracks.com/rainydayluke/5sos-moan-audios) just skip to the ashton one haha :) xx

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