painful love

what the...

Type woke up the next morning patting for tharn. Not being able to find him he opened he's eyes looking at the schedule on the wall. Tharn had work at this time and type had to leave. He huffed.
Getting up slowly he went to the shower. Letting the hot water warm him he signed deeply. He missed tharn,he felt something was off. Tharn was acting weird and didn't show up til late. He signed. Are you cheating on me tharn? I wouldn't put it past you if you were. Type felt depressed. To him tharn could do better be with someone better. Someone who was more there for him. Someone who didn't hurt him. Type shook his head. Getting out of the shower he went to his room getting his scrubs on. Going to the kitchen he found something he could bring with him and he left. Walking to his hospital he had to work in emergency.
Looking down at a woman who was unconscious he started to sew her up. Why couldn't relationships be this easy? Type knew what he had to do  for this woman but for his relationship he had no clue. He loved tharn so much but his longest relationship was only 2 months and that was fake. He only went out with men for a week and him and tharn had been going out for 3 years. He didn't know what to do. A heterosexual relationship you fall in marriage and kids but for them what could they fall back on.
Type closed the woman. Being finished he walked home and shook. He'd been at the hospital for 23 hours.  
He thought has he walked. What are we suppose to do? He hated to go to tharns work now because of how he acted, tharn seemed to be getting irritated at type more. Maybe they were leaning towards breaking up? Type shuttered at the thought. He didn't want that he was in love with tharn and hed have been since they were 6. But tharn only loved him since they were 10 and tharn dated girls. He only held back because of type. Would he be with a girl now if they hadn't met?
Would he be touching a girl right now if type wasent dating him? Was he holding tharn back? Type huffed sullen. He was making himself go crazy.
He walked slowly up the stairs. Wishing they had an elevator. He went to the door putting the key in. Going inside he froze. He started to tremble and hard.
Type was watching tharn on the couch kissing a woman roughly.
"Ttharn!?"
He stopped and looked to type.
"What?" "Shes beautiful,sexy and can give me a kid." "You were nothing more then a fuck buddy til i found her."
He turned back putting his lips on hers.
Type stood there frozen, trembling and crying.