painful love

broken up

Type hit his head again on the hotel door. He had opened the door over a thousand times just to close it.
"I'm such an idiot!" "I need to."
Then his thoughts wondered to tharn being embraced with a woman. Type shut his eyes turning around throwing the suitcase to the bed. Sliding down the door he was empty. He pulled his legs to his chest putting his chin on them letting the tears fall.
Its nothing but my fault. If i wasn't so insecure i would be with him right now. He would be touching me the way he's probably touching her.
He squeezed his eyes shut his heart sinking further.
Its better this way. He'll get over me quicker. He deserves better, someone who isn't like this someone who doesn't over think like me. He can finally be free.
"Even though its my decision why do i feel like the one downing." He shook.
Day after day past and tharn was at the bar everyday drinking himself under the table. He couldn't reach type he didn't know where he was and every time he was at the hospital he wasent there.
Drinking his last he took a cab home to a empty house. Going to the couch all his thoughts were of type. He didn't want anyone else.
"Damn it type why did you leave me?" He sobbed into the couch.
After 2 weeks even though his dimeaner changed type could breathe. He changed his phone number and he made sure he did an internship at another hospital.
Type barly ate or slept indulging in work. Type didn't care about himself anymore and any smiles he gave were to the patients.
"You did good work today you should goo home."
"Im Fine thank you."
The doctor looked after type shrugging.
Not being able to place an iv correctly he signed going to his locker going to the hotel. Walking he thought. He was also trying to work on himself, thinking on ways to stop being like this. Honestly he didn't know how.
He froze when he's brain flashed a memory of tharn.
"Stop."
"Hey"
Type opened his eyes to see a patient he onced treated a month ago. The weird one who didn't like anyone else.
"Um hi." Type nodded he just wanted to go the hotel.
The patient blocked his path.
"Hey are you okay? Don't you remember me?"
"Yes. But im on my way home so if you."
Type tried again to get blocked. He stared at the guy.
"Hey let me buy you a drink its the least i can do."
"Um i can't its unethical."
"Ethical or not one drink has a thank you."
The patient put his arm around type. He signed one drink then im out.
At the bar the patient wouldn't stop talking. Type didn't even touch his drink. This was wrong he shouldn't be there.
"Um look I'm really tired i need to go but Thank you."
Trying to get up the guy put his hand on type holding him there.
"You didn't even tough your drink." He frowned.
"Look I'm sorry but this was a mistake to see you out side the hospital like this I'm sorry I'm.happy your getting better."
Type shook off the guy grabbing his jacket and walked out. The man smiled downing types drink.
Type shook his head. I'm so stupid. Then he was grabbed to the side of the building by the guy.
"What the?"
Then in shock the man pushed him to the wall kissing him. Type got pissed.
He pushed the guy back whipping his lips.
"What the fuck is the matter with you?"
Tharn After swim practise he left. He was losing clients he didn't let anyone touch him anymore nor was he flirting. Today he wanted to walk to the bar. Getting to the doors he froze.
"Type?"
He rounded the corner staying still balling his fists. Type was kissing another man.
The man not accepting a no. Went in for another kiss. Type struggled but he pushed him away with a punch.
"Don't you fucking touch me!"
"Why do you have someone?"
Type bit his lip and hard.
"So your single."
Type looked up pissed.
"Single or not you kiss me again im going to.."
He was cut off by being thrown back to the wall the asshole tried again not letting up.
Tharn! Type screamed in his head.
A loud crack is all type heard. He froze when he saw tharn. He was standing in front of type shaking.
The man looked up to him then to type. He ran off.
Type started to breathe shakily in.
Tharn had to breathe too he was pissed.
Then type started to try and leave without tharn noticing. He heard his feet move and he looked straight at type with anger and jealousy.
"Your so jealous of me and yet your kissing another, really type?"
Type flinched.
"I don't need to listen to this."
He tried to leave but tharn softly put him on the wall kissing him.
Types eyes went wide, he indulged, a thought crossed his mind he saw  tharn with an un named woman, kissing her and making love to her, he quickly pushed him away.
"Leave me alone tharn." He yelled over his shoulder running away.
Damn it type. Tharn smacked the wall and ran after him. Not checking the street signs type ran out a car hit him. Tharn stood there frozen seeing type on the ground.
"Type!"