His love

Where am I?

I get up off the floor and brush myself off- rubbing my cheek from the impact.

"I, for some odd reason don't believe the words that you say. You say I was born a matanica but you are a vampire- a Matanica's daughter. Every bone in my body is screaming that this vial needs to be examined and tested by someone we trust" She motions herself towards the chair sitting under the window and directs our attention to the vial that is being unattended. Desmond grabs it, along with my hand. We walk out of the room looking at each other to see if what just happened was real.

Desmond takes me to Majika's room- Gabe her brother, is visiting for some reason. That's why I am here; I don;t like her and she doesn't like me.

Desmond knocks on the door, I can't hear anything but I'm sure he does.

"Alannah?" Gabe asks- but Desmond doesn't turn, is this him or me or both of us? I turn to him and smile,

"Hey Gabe, I have something to ask of you. You've done so much to help me, I hate to ask you for another favor but-"

"Please, I would love to help you, what is it?"

"Well, I know that you are savvy when it comes to science. I need you to verify the content inside of this vile that it is indeed the vaccine for my Matanica blood." I hold it up to him, he grabs it from me, looking at me and it a few times.

"I don't have to use science to confirm the contents inside of this vile- I can see the molecule separating itself from the blood and the white blood cells being killed of. This is mixed with vampire blood as well. Where did you get this? It's absolutely fascinating." He takes another look at the vile in utter disbelief.

"I got it from a woman who claims I'm her daughter." He is flabbergasted by this; almost like he knew but didn't want to confirm it.

"Did you learn her name?" I pondered, no. I didn't learn her name; she just agreed that she was Iris- my maybe grandmother.

"No, I didn't. In fact she claimed to be Iris when she walked into my room, Well, she let me believe she was Iris." Gabe rushes over to me- tucking me inside his trench coat when I hear the sudden footsteps- the clicking of high heels. I thought Ms. Dean was gone, this isn't happening again is it? I don't want to go through this pain and fear.

I open my eyes under his trench coat, I see all of the tools strapped to certain areas, including a picture of Iris. I don't understand- why would there be a picture of Iris that I've never seen before. I lightly grab it from his pocket when his hand pats me on the head, grabbing the picture and putting it back,

"Amalecitae." Gabe says in a low roar,

"How did you break through?" He asks. Who is Amalee?

"My daughter is a Matanica- that doesn't mean I don't have some perks to being her mother."

"You and I both know this is your sick imagination Amalecitae. She's apart of your mother's blood line- you were born dead, the only way to keep you alive was to turn you into a vampire. Don't put your sick ways into this child's head."

"Gabe, sweetie. Puella is my daughter- I birthed her, her father made love to me. She was born from my blood- so she will need to drink it in order-" When she was about to finish her sentence Gabe kicked me out of the private room and Desmonds hands are on my shoulders- worry is written all of his face- I didn't even realize I had fainted. I couldn't feel the symptoms in the room but I wasn't ready to leave- I'm assuming Gabe didn't kick me out but my own feelings did.

"YOU SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME! YOU WEREN'T RESPONDING OR MOVING YOUR EYES WHAT HAPPENED?!" I didn't care how scared he felt- I seriously am considering what my life really is. I open my closed hand- the vile I'm gripping tightly, brings me back to why I'm going through all of this.

"Can you help me up please?" I say. He grabs me, he doesn't even use much strength at all to bring me up to my feet.

"Gabe is talking to my supposed mother. I was wondering if you would do me a favor."

"Anything I can do, Ir- Alannah."

"Could you stand watch outside my door- I just want to rest, a lot has been happening in the last few weeks. Just for tonight." He nods his head. I walk away towards my dorm room- all I want is to be with Desmond without this stupid burden of my poisonous blood. I can't even imagine what Desmond is going through, why doesn't he just find someone else to love?

I open the door and shut it, I lock each and every possible thing to make sure no one can come into the room, I look at the vile in my hand- I have a syringe in my first aid kit, the needle isn't that long but it will have to do.

I go into my bathroom turning on the water of the sink and bathtub. I search for my first aid kit under the sink but it wasn't there, so I look in the medicine cabinet- thank god it was there. I open the first aid kit, grab the syringe, opening the package. I poke it through the vile and withdraw the liquid- all of it. I walk over to the briefcase and grab a dated booklet and open it to the 'Instructions' . It says that the needle needs to be inserted into my chest- right above my heart, where the heart is generated and cleansed. I face my 'over the door' mirror. I align it right above my heart, I breath in and out excessively.

"This is for us Desmond. See you in a hot minute." I slam the needle into my chest, when it's injected I begin to feel my heart racing- rapidly. I feel sweaty and hot, I can feel my blood moving and hear it flowing, rushing. The blood cells popping. I look in the mirror before my vision goes blurry- my eyes glow a yellow with a tint of red. That's when I try and catch my balance- knocking over things on my side dresser and grabbing the clothes from my closet- once clothes start falling I do to, my face makes contact with the head board from my bed, then my head slams onto the bare floor- shit. My legs begin to go numb and my back is tingly, side effects? or did I break my neck?

I am laying here regretting my choice of locking every single thing in this room.

I don't know how long it's been, I have stopped sweating, but my mouth has began to hurt, probably from hitting it on the stupid head board. Desmond won't be able to hear me because I have the bath and shower running which sucks.

Out of nowhere I am going through the symptoms again, this time I feel like passing out, It's like I've been running for days and I'm finally about to catch my breath. I close my eyes giving into the tiredness.

"So she took the bate, good. Load her into the van, we'll take her to the lab for further testing. Bring the vampire to." I can't tell who's voice that it is, but he sounds so familiar? Where am I going? Who's taking me? Does Desmond know? I'm sure he does, he knows everything.

I am picked up by my feet and hands- not very comfortable. I was then scooped up, it felt like I was thrown from my small window- the landing soft, now I'm being cradled again.

*Door closes*

This is warm- I lean into the person because I'm freezing, I latch my hand onto the shirt, I could almost smell it, I can't open my eyes either. Desmond, I know you're somewhere I can almost taste it, where am I?