She's still not answering her phone! what's wrong with her?!
"The number you have dialed is currently not available. Please try again later."
It's been several months already.
What, am I really nothing to her now?
Does she have someone new?
Am I not enough for her?
I thought she loved me....
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"Congratulations team! The first and second stage of the clinical trial is a success! This is all because of your hard work and dedication the whole month. You can take the rest of the day to rest. We'll start the stage 3 tomorrow at 6. Make sure that all the data were recorded. We're done with rats and rabbits, let's try moving bigger objects tomorrow. You may go back to your stations."
After the announcement, the scientists involved have gone back to their stations and made use of the day to rest. They all know that the part of the experiment the next day would be the stepping stone for the crucial part of the project. Finally having time to herself, Liliane called her long-time boyfriend, Nathaniel, for the first time in months.
With great anticipation in her heart, she dialed his number.
“Who’s this.” Nathan answered without the intention of really asking, all the days of loneliness and emptiness inside him, he made her feel as though she was no longer someone he knew.
“B-babe! It’s me. I-I’m sorry I didn’t get to call- “
“Does it still matter?”
Hearing his cold-shuddering tone, Liliane was on the verge of crying but, she knows it was her fault. It was her fault for letting him feel insecure especially with their relationship. So despite of the heaviness in her heart she tried to woo her boyfriend and withstand his coldness. She missed him terribly.
“B-Babe, please don’t be like this.” She almost choked on her words. The pain in her heart from both missing him and his cold approach has made her feel inexplicable pain in her heart. “I-I’m really sorry, I didn’t mean to make you wait this long. It’s just that, we had so many things to do here that I barely had time to use my phone let alone sleep. We’ve been working on the project but- “
“I don’t want to hear that, Liliane.”
She tried to explain the situation the best she can but, she was dismissed by him indifferently.
I’m really sorry, babe. Please forgive me. I miss you.
“I-I miss you, Nathan.” Her voice broke. She knows it was her fault. She knows he was just angry, she understands that but, her heart can’t. Not his coldness. Not his indifference. Not his ‘don’t-care-anymore’ attitude.
“If you’re really sorry, come to me. Right now.” His voice was resolute. As if it was the only thing that can make him feel that he still mattered to her.
“B-babe, you know I can’t do that. Babe, we’ve been working on for this project for months. I can’t just leave here in the midst of the essential parts of the project. We’re almost there baby, please… Just a little more time, huh?” She tried to make him understand but, all the million thoughts that ran through his head was enough to block any rational thoughts left for him. He was lonely without her. His sunshine. His hope. She was the one that saved him from drowning and yet, she was also the one of the reason why he’s drowning deeper now. Drowning in darkness, without hope left.
“You know where to find me.” He said before hanging up.
She didn’t expect Nathan to be in such a state. She went to pursue this research because he supported her and he wanted her to achieve her dreams.
but right now…
Only did it dawn on her.
Something is wrong.
Something happened.
But what happened?
It’s as though he was back to the depressed guy seated in the corner of the room, left alone for himself, only…
Realizing this, she immediately dialed their mutual friend, Bianca’s phone number…
“H-Hello Bi?” She hesitated. But she knows if there’s someone who would know what is up, it was their friend. So she gathered her courage and asked, “Bi I’m sorry for suddenly calling you at this time.”
“Girl! We’ve been waiting for you for ages! Why were you so hard to contact the past month? So many things happened here! And Nathan…” As if waking up from her ranting, she stopped before she was able to say anything. This raised Liliane’s suspicion and fear more.
‘W-what? What happened to Nathan? Is he okay? I called him before calling you, he didn’t sound okay. Did something happen at work? Is someone trying to make it hard for him? What tell me. please Bi.” Panic was evident in her voice. She’s worried.
“Li, Tita’s gone. Nathan’s mother, she’s gone. Heart attack.”
Liliane’s heart fell.
She never expected it to be this way. So that’s why… she knew how much Nathan loved his mom. Aside from her, his mom is the only person he could run to whenever his mind runs a mile. Now she’s gone, and she wasn’t there to be there for her love. What kind of girlfriend is she?!
Her mind is a mess. She couldn’t think properly. She was grieving and worrying and blaming herself for everything.
I couldn’t even be there for you when you were so lonely. You must have been overcome with grief. I’m so sorry, Nathan. I’m sorry love. Would you still believe me if I tell you I love you?
I’m coming home, babe. I’m coming home… to you.
