You Don't Own Me.

09.

//WARNING:: This chapter contains the mention of suicide and overdose, enter at your own risk.
-CkR.\\

When the next morning came, it felt like a dream.
Just going out with Ares, meeting his family then..
I looked over my shoulder to the one still sleeping soundly next to me.
I bit my lip with a soft smile.
It felt unreal and it was nothing like last time.
I woke up with no one next to me and a note was my good morning.
This time he was still in bed.
I don't think I've ever really taken in his sleeping face.
Back at the camp we couldn't exactly lay down and take our partners in.
We were expected to get up and start the day.

He shifted under the covers and as his eyes slowly opened I closed mine.
If he was nothing like Ash, he wouldn't notice that I was just staring at him.
I lied there for the longest moment not feeling the bed dipping to let me know he was getting out of bed.
I dared myself to open my eyes to only have his eyes on me.
I felt my face growing warm.

"Hi." He greeted me with a tired smile.
"Hi." I smiled shyly back at him.
He lied there for a moment before looking to the alarm clock.
"Oh wow." He laughed bringing his forearm over his eyes as he lied there.
"First time I've slept in, in a while." He smirked softly looking to me now.
I nibbled my lip but only tensed feeling his on mine now.
I melted into him as he smiled into the kiss before breaking it.

"Want some breakfast?" He offered.
I nodded hearing my stomach growl.
He nodded getting up.
"Go ahead and shower, I'll get breakfast-"
"Join me." I told him.
He blinked looking at me as I smirked softly.
"No sense in only one of us being clean." I said now.
He studied me for a moment but smirked.
"Okay, let's go shower." He said waiting for me to get out of bed.

This was the first shower where I was with another guy that wasn't Ashby.
It felt weird but at the same time I enjoyed knowing it was Ares.

He applied the shampoo in his hair as I did the same, the water was hot and anytime I showered with hot water it always got me bothered.
I watched the back of him and I really wanted to do it.
But he wasn't Ash.
I wasn't picturing him as the type to turn around and have his way.
Even though I desperately wanted him too.

I looked away from him now with a disappointed look.
"Rocky." I looked to the other who looked down at me.
"Go down on me." He told me.
I wasn't sure if it was the heat from the water but I didn't decline his command before dropping to my knees.
It may of been easier out of the shower, but then again.
We'd stay clean this way.
I looked up at him before kissing the tip taking him into my mouth.

I listened to him moaning above me as I worked my tongue and made sure to keep my teeth away.
I wouldn't tell anyone, but he was very sensitive here.
A lot of guys were.
But there were those wild ones where they wanted you to bite their dick.
It made me cringe.

I brought him into the back of my throat using my tongue as best as I could before he forced himself out of my mouth then released into the shower.
My face was burning as he knelt down pressing his lips to mine.
"You've gotten good at that, Rocky." He smirked as I looked at him.
He turned the heat up before pulling me up and pushing into me.
I winced at the sudden feeling.
I know last night I didn't need prepping.
But I think I needed it today.
Because it hurt.
I ignored it though, because shower sex was one of my favorite places to do it.

I moaned into his neck as he thrusted inside.
Yeah.
I really did miss, Ares.
----
"I'm going to get breakfast started." He told me putting his black and blue sweat pants on, nothing more than that.
I studied his shirt he completely abandoned before looking at the back of him walking out of the room.
I nibbled my lip for a moment before smirking softly.
I removed the robe as I grabbed his shirt.
This was such a cliche.
I buttoned the shirt with nothing else on each for my black briefs.
His shirt went down to my thighs.
Yeah.
This turned out hotter than I thought.

I mean I knew his clothes would be bigger on me, I was pretty small for my age.
So it was no surprise that his clothes would look good on me.

I felt shy but braced myself before walking out of the room in his shirt.

Again I could hear chatter in the kitchen but this time it was more voices.
I walked into the kitchen and immediately Devin's eyes were on me.
He grinned wickedly.
"That's brave." He said quiet enough for me to hear.
Ares back was to me as he stood at the stove.

"Devin we're have a meeting today so make sure you're not late today." Ares spoke up as he flipped what looked like a pancake.
Everyone's eyes were either on him or on me.
"Well as long as your cute but brave boyfriend doesn't get lost, I won't." Devin told him.
"My brave-" Ares turned and his eyes fell on no one else but me.

I stood there as he took me in.
His jaw ticked before he smirked.
"Well, don't you like being a tease?" He smirked turning away to continue cooking.
I bit my lip.
"I felt bold I guess." I shrugged taking a seat across from Devin at the table who was grinning at this.
"Very." I looked to the back of Ares who looked like he lost his composure for a minute.

Devin grinned wickedly as he got up from the table as Anthony went to protest but the brunet ignored him.
He walked up behind Ares.
"Fuck he's so cute." He whispered grinning.
"In my shirt? Damn."

"Devin fuck off!" Ares yelled.
Devin ran back laughing.
"Oh man, I like you." He grinned at me.
"You got my cousin flustered." He smirked.
I blinked but grinned.
"Ares, are you flustered?" I asked him.
He glanced to me and I could see his eyes were darker.
Oh wow.
I felt my face growing warm and suddenly I regretted this idea.
I was hard.
FUCK.

He came over with my plate before noticing my current state before smirking.
He leaned in.
"You naughty boy." He smirked.
I glared harshly at him.
He grinned sitting the plate down.
"I guess you'll be smarter than to do that next time, right?" He kissed my cheek walking over to the stove.
This wasn't good.
I was throbbing as I stared down at my plate.
I wanted to eat.
But it was hard.
Why did I think this was a smart move?
Because now I'm stuck.

Anthony helped Ares put the plates out before Ares came over and sat beside me.
"So, I heard Elliot stayed out all night. Did he see anything?" Ares questioned and without warning, his hand was on my crotch as I flinched hard.
Devin blinked.
"You okay?" His brow arched.
I bit my gum with a nod.

Anthony looked to him.
"Elliot claims he didn't see anything, he left around six this morning and asked for you to call him later." He told the other.
Ares nodded sliding his hand into my briefs as my face grew dark red.
"I'll call him after breakfast then," he looked to me smirking.
"And I'll have Callum bring you home shortly, you have work today right?" He questioned with his thumb brushing against the tip.
I wanted to cry out.
Oh fuck.

I managed a nod trying not to cry from my eyes burning.
He glanced to me smirking before removing his hand as I let out a shaky breath.

"So what do you do?" Devin questioned taking a drink of his apple juice.
I blinked trying to collect myself.
"O-Oh I'm a dancer at Bounce." I told him.
Devin's eyes grew wide.
"You work at a strip club? Oh wow!" He grinned at Ares.
"What an interesting mix, a dancer and a CEO at Avalon." He grinned softly.
"How long have you worked there?" Devin asked next.
I looked at him.
"For eleven months now." I told him.
He blinked.
"Huh..so do you just dance or?" He was very curious, anyone could see that based on the endless questions he wanted to ask.

I felt like that was a dangerous question based on the look in Ares eyes.
"I dance for customers, on the stage or on their tables if they request it. Stripping and lap dances are also a thing as well as the private room." I explained to him.

Devin looked excited.
"That sounds like fun! All we do is meetings, paperwork and call people. Your typical business." He shrugged with a grin as his eyes locked on Ares.
"And you're letting him dance for other guys?" He asked the blond who had been quiet until now.

Ares glanced to me with a smirk.
"I have no control over where he works, what I care about is him letting others touch him. Especially in this private room." His eyes darkened as I looked down now.
Devin looked to him then to me.
"Well like I said, it sounds like fun. Unfortunately I couldn't see myself dancing or even stripping, its too bold for me." He laughed now.
Ares looked to the brunet.
"Not only that but your parents would be strongly against it." He pointed out.

"Last time I checked, they don't control me." Devin stated a little too bitterly.
Ares took a drink of his water as the air in the room grew thick.
"You're right I forgot, you're a mature adult now who doesn't need his parents telling him how to live his life. Yet he still submitted to his fathers command by coming and working for me." Ares said now.

Anthony cleared his throat looking to Ares.
"How long do you think we need to keep a look out for Nikolai?" He questioned changing the subject.
Ares blinked but then pushed his plate aside.
"Not for long, once he realizes how fast I can destroy his reputation not to mention his pride. He'll no longer be a threat or even bother Rocky, he'll back off the moment he finds out it was a mistake to even talk up to me like he's the one with power." He wiped his mouth before standing up.
"I'll have Harper run some reports on him to find out what dirt I can dig up on that trash, last time I checked. I'm a CEO waiting for the chairman position to be open just to take that in an instant, and then not a single soul can threaten me or anyone in this room." He looked to me.

"Let's go change so I can get you home." He told me now.
I was glad the shirt was big enough to not reveal the fact I've been hard this entire time.
And Ares touching me did not help.

I walked out of the kitchen with him before yelping at how fast he lifted me up over his shoulder, slapping my ass then heading up the stairs.
"A-Ares!" I cried with my face completely flushed.
We were back in the room and he was tossing me on the bed.

"Do you like not only torturing me but yourself?" He smirked pinning my wrists above my head.
I wiggled under him as my face remained flushed.
"How was I supposed to know me wearing your night shirt would get you hard?" I demanded squeaking as his free hand grabbed my ass.
"I'm sorry." I smirked at him now.
He smirked back capturing my lips with his.
"If you were mine, you wouldn't expose yourself like that to anyone else but me. Why do you think I punished you earlier?" He smirked now.
I blinked but then glared.
"You were teasing me as a punishment?" I demanded.
"I was." He agreed with a grin.
"No one else should see you dressed like that except for me, if I had my way then and there I would of made everyone leave and bent you over the table before taking you right then." He told me.

I nibbled my lip.
"That's actually pretty hot." I confessed.
He smirked softly.
"You really have changed." He told me.
I stared up at him.
"Well I mean look at you Mr.Dominant, you're definitely reminding me of this book I read a few weeks back about this girl who went to interview this business guy I think? And he turned out to be into bdsm as well as being dominant, I mean the first book was pretty sad based on how it ended but the other two were pretty great." I shrugged.
He arched a brow.
"I have no idea what the fuck you're talking about, but that's a book Rocky." He smirked kissing my neck.
"And if you were into stuff like that, then I'd definitely make it happen." He whispered.
My face grew warm as my thoughts fell on the whip and toy in Ash's room.
I nibbled my lip nervously.
"I might be." I confessed.

His eyes grew dark.
"You're into the whole bdsm thing?" He asked me.
I bit my lip.
"Stop." He breathed now.
"Biting your lip." He smirked as I grinned.
"I mean I'm not against the idea of it? I'd like to try it out, I have this whip-"
"You have a whip?" He smirked at me.
I wanted to bite my lip.
I always did that when I was nervous.
I nodded regardless how fast my heart was racing.

Ares studied me.
"You really have changed in the last six years." He ripped the shirt open I had on as one of the buttons flew.
He pressed his lips to my nipple as I flinched feeling him sucking then biting.
I tried to move my hands but he tightened his hold.
"Oh no." He smirked.
"If you're into bdsm, lets try it out." He told me.
My face grew warm as he tugged at my briefs.
I bucked my hips up.
"Ares, come on." I whined with a laugh.
"Stop." He commanded as I froze.
He let go before crawling out of the bed.
"What are you doing?" My brows knitted.

He walked over to his drawer before returning with two neckties.
One was red the other blue.
He pinned my wrists above my head before tying them together.
"A-Ares." I glared as he used to the blue tie to cover my eyes with.
Oh no.
No.
I couldn't see him.
I wasn't able to touch him.
It was terrifying but at the same time, it was exciting.

He smirked.
"Open your mouth." He instructed.
Not arguing I opened my mouth to feel his fingers inside.
"Use your tongue, Rocky." He told me.
I nodded licking his fingers before he removed them from my mouth.
I wasn't sure what he was doing.

My breath hitched as he pulled my briefs down before he spread my legs as my face grew warm.
"Wow. We haven't even started and you're dripping-"
"Shut up!" I cried embarrassed.
"Its your fault for touching me earlier." I hissed.
"Oh its my fault that you came into the kitchen looking like a tease?" He asked me.
I glared behind the tie.
"Yes, wait no." I yelped being tossed onto my stomach.
He raised my hips before his hand connected to my ass.
My face burned.
"S-Stop." I hissed.

"See you keep telling me what to do, yet you're the one rock hard and twitching. Until you stop telling me what to do, I'll continue to tease you." He told me pressing his fingers inside.
"Oh.." I bit my lip.
"That seemed to shut you up." Ares smirked behind me.
My face burned as how uncomfortable this felt.
"Stop teasing me, please." I cried.
Ares smirked softly.
"What do you want from me, Rocky?" He asked.
..
"Rocky?"
I cursed looking to him even though I couldn't see his face.
"I want your dick, Ares. Please, fuck me." I begged now.

I listened to him shifting on the bed.
Did he get back up?
"Ares--ah!" I shoved my mouth against my wrist biting down feeling him inside.
He hit my spot and my back arched as I whimpered under him.
"Ares I want to touch you, please untie me-"
"No." He smirked as my eyes burned.
He thrusted deeper as I let out a sharp moan.
"T-Too deep." I cried.
He ignored me continuing to thrust as my thoughts fell on how loud I must of sounded.

"A-Ares I'm com-ah.." I moaned out releasing as he came to a stop pulling out.
I lied there panting against the bed, my body trembling as my face remained flushed.

He untied my wrists first before removing the one covering my eyes.
My eyes were glistened with tears.
He smirked.
"How was that for your first bdsm act?" He questioned kissing my lips.
I tried to control my breathing before smirking at him.
"Exciting." I confessed.
----
When we made it to the apartment, I didn't want to get out.
Callum jumped out before running to open my door.
I stepped out as Ares joined me.
He smirked softly.
"I'd like to have you every weekend, is that selfish of me?" He questioned.
I smiled softly.
"No, but I work on Saturday's so I'd be at your house around midnight." I told him.
He looked at me caressing my cheek.
"That's fine, it just means I'll have you Friday through Sunday, in morning around the evening then at night." His lips pressed to mine.
"I'll call you later, have fun on your first day back to work." He said sliding back into the passenger seat.

I stood there watching him drive away all over again.
I hated seeing him leave.
If I lived with him, we'd never have to see each other go.
Only to work to just welcome the other back.
But I couldn't abandon Ariana and Ashby.
They'd hate me for leaving them with everything, unless they got a roommate.
I ran a hand through my hair before heading up the stairs.
Heading into the house I wanted to call home.
But now it was slowly no longer sounding like it.
----
"I thought you were just going for dinner?" Ashby asked on the couch looking annoyed.
I blinked.
"Thing's changed after Nikolai tried to attack me in public, Ares wanted-"
"Whoa." Ariana jumped up.
"That guy who almost raped you tried to attack you?" She asked worried.
I nodded with crossed arms.
"He's after me and Ares was worried so he wanted me to stay the night." I explained with a soft frown.
Ariana frowned.
"Well are you okay?" She asked.
I nodded.
"I'm fine, oh and I'll be going to Ares every weekend." I said now.

"Hold the fuck up." Ash got up and he looked very upset about this fact.
"What the hell do you mean, you're going to be at his house every weekend? You swore off fucking dating, Rocky." He hissed.
I frowned at him.
"I've been thinking a lot lately," I glanced to Ariana who understood where I was going with this.
"And I don't know, I'm kind of tired of just having sex with randoms I bring home." I shrugged heading to the sink.
"Well what about us?" He demanded behind me.
"Are you just going to drop me like nothing?" He questioned.

"Why are you so jealous over this?" I shot now annoyed.
"You and I were just sex buddies who weren't supposed to get attached like that, we knew this wouldn't last-"
"Bull fucking shit, Rocky. Until that bastard came back, you were perfectly okay seeing randoms and suddenly you want to stop being a slut and only be for him? No." He growled.

My brows knitted.
"Do you remember that day you said you'd be jealous the moment I brought a guy home and said he was the one?"
"Don't say it." Ashby was glaring daggers at me.
I frowned at him.
"He's the one." I told him.
"Fuck, Rocky!" He slammed his fist against the wall earning both me and Ariana to flinch.
His eyes burned glaring at me.
"Take it back, stop seeing him." He told me.
"What the hell, Ash? No." I glared now.

"How the fuck am I supposed to be okay with this? You're abandoning everything, we're a trio of sluts, you can't break what we've built here." He growled.
"Nothing has been built." I crossed my arms frowning at him.
"And I'm not the only one who feels like this." I looked to Ariana as Ashby turned to her with a glare.
"You too?" He frowned deeply.
"Ash, it was fun in the beginning but it gets old sooner or later. You'll realize that when you start actually liking someone." She explained.

He shook his head.
"No you're right, this isn't fun anymore. You two ruined it by turning into a pair of fucking boring ass people who want romance and families, fuck you both!" He hissed going to his room before slamming the door.

I stood there in silence as I looked to Ariana who forced a smile.
"He'll be fine, Rocky. He's just upset." She told me flinching at the sound of things being thrown in the others room.
I ran a hand through my hair.
"Are you sure?" I questioned.
She nodded with a reassuring smile.
"It's just one of his many temper tantrums." She smirked bringing me to the table.

"So! What's this about you going there every weekend?" She smiled now.
I blinked but smiled.
"He wants to have me for the weekend, I'm not against the idea I mean I want to see him more than just the weekend." I confessed with a shrug.
She looked at me.
"Why not just move in with him?" She suggested.
I made a face.
"What? I can't abandon you and Ash, not to mention if he wanted me to move in he would of asked-"
"All I'm hearing are excuses." She smirked.
"And Ash and I will be just fine, we can always look for a new roommate if you're wanting to live with him." She told me.

I frowned at her.
"I'm not going to rush things, Ari. But I'll keep it in mind." I said now.
She nodded.
"I'll support you no matter what, Rocky. All I care about is you being happy." She told me.
I nodded with a smile.
"Right back at you." I told her.
She grinned.
----
First day back to work got here faster than I wanted it too.
I was nervous and already felt rusty after being gone for a week.
Darby was bound to be furious.
I was one of his regular dancers so I knew he had to improvise and work with what he had.

The sign came into view as I walked up the sidewalk, as usual people were waiting to go inside.
I took a shaky breath and headed inside to the loud music.
But I felt more eyes on me than usual.
It was making me nervous as I ignored their eyes and headed to the back.
It was surprisingly empty back here.

"Rocky!" I flinched hearing Darby's voice.
I turned to the owner.
"Hi Darby, I'm so sorry for getting sick." I told him.
He arched a brow.
"Oh that's fine? How are you feeling?" He asked me.
I blinked.
"Oh, a lot better actually." I said now.
He nodded.
"That's good, so tonight we're just taking it easy unless a customer requests something but I've kept in mind over what happened last time so no private shows for you." He said with a wink before walking out.

I stood there feeling relieved.
At least he wasn't angry.

"Hey, there he is!" Gavin announced walking in with Sam.
"Hey guys." I greeted them with a smirk.
"Heard you had the flu, that shit sucks." Gavin grinned as I nodded.
"It did, but I'm glad to be back. I've actually missed work." I confessed.
Sam smirked but it fell.

"Hey, do you know whats been eating Ashby? He came in before you and was pissed about something, it felt out of character even for him because you know he's the bubbly flirty one here." He said now.
I rubbed my neck.
"That's actually my fault." I told them.
Gavin arched a brow.
"You two got in a fight? That's weird." He frowned.
I looked to him.
"It was more or less him angry because I'm seeing someone, as in no longer doing one night stands." I explained.

Sam blinked.
"Oh wow, that's shocking? But hey congrats, its not like one night stands are exactly healthy." He said now.
I nodded with crossed arms.
"Well I'm going to see who I can serve for tonight, talk later." I said heading out of the room.
When I walked out the eyes were back on me.
Why was everyone staring so hard?
It was beginning to make me feel uncomfortable.

Their eyes would fall on me then on the phones.
Did Ashby make another dramatic status about our fight?
He's been known to do that in the past.
Whatever.
I ignored it as I walked over to the bar where Cole was.

"Hey Rocky." He greeted pouring me a shot.
"Hi, Cole." I took the shot before frowning.
"Any idea why everyone is staring at me?" I questioned.
"Maybe because you have something smeared on your face?" He suggested.
My eyes grew wide.
"Do I really?" I hissed rubbing my face.
He laughed.
"No, but I don't know why. You do seem popular tonight." He said now looking around with an arched brow.
"Maybe they're surprised you came back?" He said now.
"Maybe.." I said trying to convince myself before leaving the bar.

I walked through the crowd.

["Hate Me." By Ellie Goulding& Juice WRLD Begins Playing.]

"Excuse me?" This girl was trying her best not to blush as she looked at me.
I forced a smile.
"Yes, are you wanting a request?" I asked her.
The blonde haired gray eyed girl shook her head before pulling something up on her phone.
"I was just wanting to know--is this you?" She revealed whatever was on her phone to me as I stared before I let out a startled cry stumbling back.

It was that video Gabriel recorded the night we had that foursome.

"Hey watch it." A guy hissed shoving me.
"Oh fuck its the small one from the video!" He laughed.
"No way!" Another girl chimed in laughing.
"Hey would you be up for a threesome?"
"How did it feel taking two guys?"
"What a whore."
"Holy shit he belongs here."

I covered my ears running past all of the laughing people heading to the back.

"Rocky-!" Gavin and the others were back there with Ashby.
My friends eyes locked with mine.
"Are you aware you're all over the internet?" He asked me.
The tears kept falling.
"N-No they said they wouldn't.." I wanted to scream.
Why would they do this?
I did nothing wrong to them!
Why..

"Holy shit, maybe we can get it taken off?" Sam suggested with worry.
But despite the concerned looks.
I saw the judgement.
They were disgusted.
I was disgusting.

"Rocky!" I turned to Darby who looked upset.
"Just go home, kid." He told me.
I let out a broken cry but ran past him and the others heading back out.

"Hey there he is!" A girl exclaimed.
"Its that porn star from the video!"
"Hey want to come home with us?"
"Who knew someone so small could take two dicks like that at once."

My life was completely over.
I felt my phone buzzing as I ran out to see my mom calling.
No.
No fucking way.
I didn't know where to run.
I didn't want to go to Ares.
Everyone there would judge me.
That's all I would be is judged.

I ran into the pharmacy store with my face stained with tears.
I grabbed what I could before checking out then ran out.
I had no choice.
My life would never be the same.
I went to far.
It was all too far.
I wasn't born normal.
What's the point in even living?
No matter where I went.
People would see that video.
And they would judge me.

I walked down an alley with the bag of pills and bottled water.
My head pounded as I slumped to the concrete floor leaning against the brick wall.
I stared at the bottle of pills as my face burned.
Today was such a great day.
Why did this happen to me?
What did I do wrong to deserve this?
I thought Ian and them liked me..

I cried harder taking the lid off the bottle staring at the red and white pills.
My subconscious was screaming no.
But I forgot how stubborn I was when it came to the idea of no.
My chest ached as people walked past me on the street, ignoring me or seeing me as someone homeless.

I looked at the handful of pills.
I won't have to face the world if I die.
It's not like anyone would miss me.
Ashby hated me.
Ares was still waiting for me to make my mind up.
I mean whats the point of being a let down?
That's what I just turned out to be.

My mom kept calling me but I hit the decline button each time.
Until his name crossed my phone.
Ares.

I let out another cry but answered.

"A-Ares." I cried into the phone.
{"Rocky whats with that video? Do you know who posted it?"} He demanded.
I cried softly.
{"Rocky!"} He barked.
"I'm sorry, Ares." I cried.
{"Where are you at, I'm coming to get you."} He told me.
"No."
{"God damn it, Rocky!"}
"Bye, Ares." I hung up on the other as I looked at the pills.
I really was a coward.
...

"Holy shit is that a kid?"
"Someone call an ambulance!"
"Hey kid stay with me!"
"Fuck his pulse is dropping!"
"The ambulance just got here!"
"Sir he's right there!"

"Get the fuck out of my way."
"Is that Mr.Landry?"
"Holy shit."
"Rocky? Rocky open your eyes! ROCKY!"