Starting Over Again

This Is It

JASMINE

"Hi is this Ralph Daniels ?"

"if this for business reasons ion discuss it ova da phone you ga come see me fa dat shit , ya hear"

"umm no actually this is more personal . I'm close relative and I would like to see you in person . could we arrange something ?"

"hmmm sure , imma text you my address and you can meet me dere tomorrow , ighht ?"

"okay" I simply replied

Marcus , Justin and I got on a plane to Atlanta and rented a hotel while we was there . I couldn't sleep I was so anxious to meet my father . I wonder how this will go . I had the adoption papers with me so I hope he sign Justin over to me .

~The Next Day ...

I woke up at 1 . I didn't get sleep so I guess I spelt longer than usual . Everyone got showered and did everything we needed to do . we went downstairs and ate . then we left . we arrived at Ralph's house and it was nerve wrecking .

"This is it" is all I said as I started at the door about to knock . I finally got the courage to knock and minutes later he answered .

"Ralph Daniels ?"

"it depends . who looking ?"

I felt myself about to cry I sucked it in and spoke "hi I'm the relative that talked to you on the phone yesterday"

"oh hey come in .... what's your name by the way ? I never got it"

"Ralph , or ... dad . I'm Jasmine ... Jasmine Daniels . I'm your daughter"

"daughter ?"

"yes . and this is your son . Justin . were Monica's children"

"Monica , oh Monica" he started to cry

"Ralph ummm dad , what's wrong ?"

"my dear Monica was the only family I had . she died about a month ago . we've been looking for you two . if you would've come sooner she could've saw you before she passed . how ... how did you find me ?"

"I've been searching , I've talked to agencies . I wondered how I would react when I saw you but this moment is breathtaking . I wanted to see my mother ... do you think we could go see her now ?"

"uhh sure"

we got in his car and he drove us to Oakland Cemetery . when I saw the headstone with my mother name on it I was hurt I broke down crying . Ralph started crying also . Marcus rubbed my back and Justin has slight tears rolling down his face with a red nose due to it being winter time .

"mom , mom how could you leave me ! how could you abandon me forever ! I want you here . who knew when you gave me up that would be the last time I saw you ! what happened to the happily ever afters and movies where we reunite . mom I need you ! come back I didn't say goodbye. I never got to tell you I loved you ! you didn't see how your kids have grown mom please !" I spoked to my mother still crying .