Jason McCann love story

chapter 18 ~ lies and guilt

chapter 18

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The car ride was uncomfortably silent. i stared outside of the window as my thoughts overflowed with memories of when tyler and i were still together the dates and experiences we shared together  and the friendship i had with tyler and brodon that i missed so much, the laughs we shared, the amazing memories havent gone.

I felt tears travel down my cheeks as i remebered our first cheezy date. i felt like a traitor, seeing the hurt in his eyes.

My eye squeezed shut when i remebered my first kiss that i shared with him. i wiped my tears away when my eyes opened. i sneeked a glance at the corner of my eye. jason looked pained but i didnt quite understand what his expression was. it looked kind of like a poker face.

His fingers tightened around the steering wheel and i saw his jaw flex and his eys glanced in the mirror. I cleared my throat and continued to gaze out the window for the wrest of the ride.

i felt like i ruined the date. i felt guilty.

"im sorry" i told jason as we stopped at a red light breaking the uncomftorable silence.

"what are you sorry for?" he asked after a minute or two with a emotionless face not looking me in the eye.

"well its just that"- my voice sounded so shaky as i took in a deep breath and continued"it was supposed to be a date and" i decided to stop there because his eyes darkened when he narrowed his eyes.

"dont worry about it," he muttered, looking ahead of himand that was it. The rest of the ride was silent and  uncomftorable.

when we arrived at the house, it was still tense between us.

i walked into the house and saw that johnson wasnt around the living room or kitchen.

he must be in his room or something.. i predicted.

jason  was standing next to me not saying anything.

"jason whats wrong?" i asked trying the break the tension between us.

"nothing"  he mumbled

"jason please, talk to me" i pleaded as i walked infront of him trying to get him to tell me what was bothering him.

"Do you still like him" jason asked emotionless.

"like who?" i asked dumbfolded

"tyler" he said through clenched teeth.

"N-no"i knew deep down that my feelings for tyler havent gone but i didnt wont to loose tyler.

Jason studied me with an emotionless face.

"then why were you so upset when he left" jason asked as he stared at me trying to read me.

i didnt know what to say i was speechless...

"i u-h-hh we were really close friends especially me and brodon he was like an older brother i never had, and that made me relaise how much miss them and i really dont have feelings for tyler the only person i like is you" i said moving closer to jason. i wasnt lying completely i do miss our frienship and i do love jason i just coudnt tell jason i still have feelings for tyler he would hate me and i would loose him and i couldnt loose jason.

i went on my tipitoes and kissed jason.

Jason immediately kissed me back, my hands automatically went around his neck and he seemed to have pushed me against the wall. i felt his fingers travel around my hips and then felt the tickly sensation of them travel up and down my shirt. i tilted my head my head upward to deepen the kiss and i was slightly embarrased by the soound that escaped me.

i heard him chuckle when he placed his forehead on mine and melted his eys into mine.

i smiled at him and he chuckled again.

"your so beautiful," jason said quitely.

My face warmed up and i knew that i hade gone a deep red.  

he smiled at me making my chest tighten. he leaned in for more but this time with more eagerness.

his finger slightly pinched the skin of my hip playfully as not to make it hurt.

i felt his hands take off my blouse and then we froze.

the click of the door sounded and three of us went rigid.

i clutched my shirt to my body and nearly screamed when johson errupted in laughter. he was laughing so hard he was clutching his stomach.

"you should have seen both of your faces" he said between fits of laughter.

i leaped behind jason and soaked in the humilation.

"will you shut up already ?" jason sounded a little impatient and johson began to calm down.

'some guy named costellos on the phone," johnsons eyes darted to jason in all seriousness after he finshed laughing.

"ill be right down." jason replied.

"okay then, dont mind me interrupting......." he supressed his laughter and closed the door behind him.

"ill be back to continue were we left off." he winked and his lips pressed against my forehead.

i stared after him, listening to thuds of his feet as he walked down the stairs.

i pulled on my shirt and dived down onto the bed.

i had landed onto something and i got up to investigate what i landed on.

An iphone laid next to me and i assumed that it belonged to jason.

A thought struck through me and i seized for the phone when i had the chance.

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hey guys,

thanks for reading,

i hoped you guys liked it,

sorry i took long to upload i made this one long.

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