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Chapter 4️⃣

Joe's POV

We go into the kitchen, I take out the eggs and bacon, while she starts going through my cabinets, looking for pots.

"They're right here baby." I say pointing to the cabinet next to the stove. Baby? Let me not say that again.

It's easy to slip back into the husband roll. I have to watch myself, and it's hard because that's what I was for the last 15 years of my life. I need to learn to dial it back.

She pulls out two skillets and sits them on the Stove.

We cook the eggs and bacon together. Her cooking the eggs, and me the bacon. After we were done, I sat down at the kitchen table to eat, she followed but she sat on my lap.

I laugh, "What are you doing?"

"I want to sit on your lap." She says quickly, then closes her eyes. I'm assuming she was blessing her food.

I wait until she's done, then I speak, "How am I supposed to eat with you sitting on my lap?"

"So you want me to move?" She asks, and I can't tell her no, that'll just be rude. Plus, I don't want her to move anyway. I like her here.

"Not really." I wrap one of my arms around her, and start eating a piece of bacon with my free hand.

"So, are we going to get to know each other or what?" She asks

"Say what you want?" I say nonchalantly

"Just answer my question. What do you want?" She says

"I'm cool with whatever you want. Look, I just got out of a 15 year relationship. If you just want to fuck, I'm cool with that. If you just want a friend, I'm cool with that too. I'm chilling right now. It's nice to have someone around, but if that's not what you want, then say that, and if you want to stick around, say so. I'm trying to adjust to this new life, and I want an uncomplicated fling, relationship, fuck buddy, whatever."

"I hear you." She says

"So?"

"I swear you've put me on the spot like 3 times since we've met. I don't like it, but I see why you're doing it." She eats another piece of bacon.

"I don't like indecisiveness. Either you want me, or not." I say, "And if you just want my dick, let me know. We can discuss an arrangement." I say, laughing. "Because I know you want it."

"I want to know how you feel. I was the first person you've had sex with since your divorce. That's kind of a lot of pressure on me."

"But you didn't have to stick around. You came back, and that shows that you want to be here...and yes, you were the first person since before my divorce, you're also the only other person I've had sex with in 15 years." I somewhat correct her.

"More pressure."

I laugh, "You were great, both times. I liked it a lot, and I want to keep doing it."

She laughs, "This is the thing, and I'm a little embarrassed by saying this, but from the time we've spent together, I can tell you're sweet. You're so sweet and there's a connection between us. You're also very protective and those two things alone, attracts me to you. I don't want to move too fast because of your situation but I would like to get to know you."

"I'm cool with that." I say

She turns and kisses me, "Good. So now tell me what you do."

I bust out laughing, "Why do you need to know right now."

"Because you made me promise you I wouldn't google you and all that made me do is want to do it." she laughs, "You have this house, with three cars in your garage. You're making a lot of money, so you have to be doing something big."