Forbidden

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I feel him freeze against me for just a moment before reacting to what I'm doing. He wraps his arms around my waist, pulling me against him and kissing me back.

I feel goosebumps swarm over my whole body even though I swear I'm on fire on the inside. I've wanted this for so long. I have craved it like an addict craves their next fix.

I wrap my arms around his neck and slowly move a hand through his thick, brown curls.

God, they are so soft.

"El." He whispers against my lips.

I want him. I want all of him. I've never wanted anyone this bad in my entire life.

He pulls away a bit, both of us breathing heavy. He looks from my eyes, back to my lips.

"If we weren't at your brother in laws house right now, with your dad just in the other room..." he says, his voice low.

I let out a shaky sigh and nod my head in understanding. But just the idea that he's thinking of me in that way sends my thoughts into overdrive.

He brushes a loose strand of my hair behind my ear and I close my eyes.

"I know I said I wasn't going to stay in your room, but I don't want to sleep without you." He says, breaking apart from me but quickly grabbing my hand, interlocking our fingers.

I nod with a smile. I can't imagine sleeping without him by my side, especially now. My feelings for him have only intensified, and I didn't think that was possible.

We walk hand in hand back into the house, where everyone is still sound asleep. I shut the door to the bedroom quietly while Joe hops into the small bed.

I take my sweatshirt off and set it on the chair and walk over to the bed, pulling back the covers on my side. I can feel Joes gaze on me as I settle in beside him.

He scoots closer and rests his arm over my stomach before resting his chin on my shoulder. He slowly buries his face in the crook of my neck, his breath tickling me a little bit but I ignore it.

Suddenly, I feel him move and his lips brush against my neck. I suck in a breath as he kisses a line down to my collar bone. I grab his arm, squeezing it lightly. His lips make their way down my v-neck opening in my shirt until he's almost in between my breasts. My breathing is rapid and uncontrollable.

"Joe." I whisper.

"Sorry." He says, pulling away and laying back down beside me. I let out a long shaky breath I didn't realize I was holding.

I roll over onto my side to face him. The light from the moon shines through the see through curtains, illuminating his face. His eyes are closed and he seems as though he's trying to focus on calming himself down. But I don't want him to just yet.

I roll over on top of him so that I'm straddling his waist. His eyes shoot open and I crouch down so my face is just above his.

"El..." he says, resting his hands on my waist.

I press my lips firmly to his, as if my life depended on it. His tongue slips into my mouth, demanding to let him in which I quickly oblige. I start to feel a sensation I have never felt with anyone else before, and reality seems to slip away from me. The only thing in the world that matters right now is Joseph Jonas.

I feel all of him underneath me, slowly growing larger as we kiss. I pull away and sit up to catch my breath, but he just grabs onto me and sits up himself so that we are face to face.

He gives me a quick gentle kiss before resting his head on my chest. I wrap my arms around him as we both try to calm down.

He brings his face back to mine and I poke at his cheek playfully.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to attack you." I say, biting the inside of my cheek.

He laughs, "Don't be sorry for that."

"Let's just try to get some sleep." I say, rolling off of him and laying down in my spot.

After a few quiet minutes, I feel him grab my hand. Before I know it, I fall asleep.

—

Joe is gone when I wake up. They have rehearsal for their last show tonight here in Cali, and tomorrow I get back on the road with them to go to Mexico.

I sit across the table from my dad and Jim. We eat waffles and talk about the weather. I can see in Jim's face that he is doing a little better. It's going to take him a while to get back on his feet, but it's nice to see a little bit of improvement. My dad is going to stay with him for a while longer, since the boys are coming back home tomorrow night. Joe said he would fly my dad home whenever he's ready.

Nick also invited Jim to come to one of their shows in Mexico and hopefully he will take the offer. He needs to just unwind for a night.

I texted Amy a few times but she's still ignoring me. I feel bad about the whole situation, and I don't want her to hate me. Joe did try to make it work with her for a long time. It's not like I randomly swooped in and took him away from her.

"You okay Ellie?" My dad asks while I'm lost in my own thoughts.

I nod, "I'm good."

"So you go back on tour with the boys tomorrow right?" Jim asks.

"Yes, Mexico." I say.

"It will be good for you to get back out there." My dad says.

"Definitely. But thanks for letting us stay here Jim."

"Of course. We will always be family." He says.

"Always." My dad agrees.

—

It's late afternoon when all three Jonas boys arrive at the house to hang out for a while before they go back to the venue.

I'm out at the gazebo, sitting on top of the picnic table as I read a book. I saw their car pull in and after just a few minutes, I see Joe walking out of the back door and heading towards me. Just seeing him now makes my heart pound in my chest. Like I see him completely different after how we connected and it wasn't even sex yet.

He smiles as he walks up the steps towards me.

"Hey El."

I smile back, of course. "Hi." I say.

"How are you today?" He asks, leaning against the wooden wall.

"I'm fine. What about you?"

"I'm good, but rehearsal was rocky for me."

My forehead wrinkles, "why?"

"I kept forgetting the words because all I could think about was you on top of me last night."

My eyes widen a bit at his bluntness and I can feel my cheeks warm up.

"Oh." I say with a small smile.