Its strange to me , how sitting in silence can be deafening , staring at these pills i fell the temptation overwhelming my body , i bet your thinking how did i get here? The answer is quite simple. No reason to want to go on , lifes shown nothing but pain and torture. Drinking and smoking just to cope with anexity and depression , all the people say but you beat cancer as a child , over come this too. At what cost tho , do i really deserve to live with my sins , if im not alive anymore i dont have to suffer i can rest without worrying about my future. Ive never understood the way life works raised to show no emotion as its a sign of weakness in a man but yet im crying with no control. I scream out loud my last words "FORGIVE ME MOTHER , for this will be my last sin".....
