The day of the second meet has arrived , i put on my clothes and begin my hour long walk (now in normal cases id would choose not to go as i don't have the energy for much) however i carry on my walk and finsh my journey.
Once i got comftable we listen to music and get to know each other a little more. Atfer a long while of just talking about our recent lives we begin to talk about depression and anxiety. She tells me about her life and all of her struggles , part of me is feeling deeply sorry but i can't tell her about myself no matter how hard i try , i feel like someone has destroyed my abilty to talk. In a quick panic reply i respond "im really sorry for how your life has been , i know how you feel and will always be here." She replys with a cute smiley "thank you."
The time to leave has come and my head feels strange almost like all the thoughts of death were never there "god i pray to you now , please if im a sin in myself allow me to pay by making sure she will be okay."
