treacherous - a jenlisa au

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a/n: omg hello i am back from the dead:<< both my fingers & toes are crossed that a few of you guys are still keen to read this😩

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"this has to be a joke, right lis?"

you looked at me with panic in your eyes.

"pls tell me this is just a sick joke to get back at me for being the biggest asshole-"

i sighed and attempted to convince you that i was being serious but before i could even utter a word, you kissed me.

its funny how you do that.

like kissing me was a genius plan to shut me up and altogether just convince me to change the inevitable.

but these days, i knew better.

perhaps it took kissing tiffany, who had genuine feelings for me to realise that this was wrong...

i pulled away before you could attempt to deepen our kiss.

"you know, jen?" i exasperatedly asked as i stood up from the couch.

"for years, ive dreamt of kissing your lips-" i grabbed my bag from the coffee table in front of us.

"and i dont think you realise how happy it made me when we finally did..."

at this point it was obvious i was attempting to leave, so you stood up and tried to grab my hand as if to stop me.

"-but if youre just going to kiss me with the hope of getting what you want and not actually putting meaning into it, i dont want it" i said as i harshly yanked my arm away from your hands.

"i dont want it, bc im genuinely starting to hate it & youre making it incredibly easy to start hating you too!"

silence.

my body felt numb but i could physically feel my heart breaking into a million pieces.

i watched you start to cry with tears clouding my eyes as well.

& before i could even process everything, my mouth had a mind of its own and-

"god fucking dammit, jennie! i am so fucking in love with you and it hurts and i hate it bc you take my feelings ever so lightly and you-"

i walked to the door, wiped away my tears...

"-god, you have no care whatsoever breaking my heart when for the longest time, all it has ever done was love you!"

"lisa... i-"

"just please sign the papers already bc i need to free myself from you..."

& that was the day we last spoke and saw each other...

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