October 3, 1:10 am
Rylie Villazamora
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Rylie:
I saw you kanina
Rylie:
You look handsome as ever in that all white scrubs
Rylie:
I smiled at you but you seem dry
Rylie:
You just nodded your head tapos hindi mo na ako tiningnan ulit
Rylie:
I was secretly stealing glances at you the whole time pero ikaw never mo na akong tiningnan
Rylie:
Alam mo ba, I'm trying to be better
Rylie:
I'm engaging into some activities that will fuel my passion when it comes to designing
Rylie:
I'm trying my best to become better, Alex. Kasi gusto ko when I'm ready to face you again, okay na 'ko
Rylie:
I wouldn't have to push you away anymore
Rylie:
Tapos magiging happy na ulit tayo like before
Rylie:
But it seems like it's already too late for me because I can see that you're finally moving on
Rylie:
Which is good
Rylie:
To somehow lessen the pain or eradicate it completely
Rylie:
I'm sorry, Alex
Rylie:
I'm so sorry for all the pain that I caused you. I'm so sorry for hurting you
Rylie:
Hindi ko naman gusto 'yun e
Rylie:
If you would ask me, I want to do everything just to protect you just like how you protects me
Rylie:
But as the day goes by, the voices inside my head keeps getting stronger and stronger as my spirit gets weaker in the process
Rylie:
I just don't want to be a burden to you
Rylie:
Because the more you adjust and try to understand me, the more that I just despise myself
Rylie:
I don't want to hold you by the neck, Alex. Ayaw kong wasakin mo ang sarili mo dahil lang sa wasak ako
Rylie:
Pero you know what, Alex, I'm so grateful for having someone like you in my life even it was just a short span of time
Rylie:
Everytime I feel low, I try to remember all the words of encouragement that you gave me
Rylie:
I'm trying to view myself just like how you see me in your very own perspective
Rylie:
And everytime I do that, I'm slowly seeing my worth again
Rylie:
Kahit hindi na tayo, you still have a contribution in the process of my healing
Rylie:
Sobrang the best ka and because of that, you also deserve the best
Rylie:
At hindi pa ako 'yon
Rylie:
Maybe, when I finally fixed myself naka move on ka na totally
Rylie:
Alex, sorry ha? I'm sorry if I'm taking too long to fix and find every broken piece of me
Rylie:
Sorry kasi hindi pa ako pwedeng bumalik sa'yo
Rylie:
Naiintindihan ko naman if you can no longer wait
Rylie:
Siguro it's time for me to move on rin
Rylie:
Kasi if I would keep on holding on it's like niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko kasi we are not really compatible for each other
Rylie:
I am still the flame that would burn you into ashes and I don't want that
Rylie:
You deserve more than that
