Endless Letters

internet connection

Now I'm sitting here
Wondering if we were meant to be friends.
Fuck feelings. Fuck distance.

We're strangers,
Met on the internet,
Thousands kilometers apart.
Felt like I've known you forever.

Remember all the nights?
Where we would stay up just to chat?
It would be day for you and night for me.
All our midnight talks. I miss them.

Where have you been lately?
How are you doing?
Are you ignoring me?
These are what I wanted to ask.
It felt annoying because I'm just another girl from the internet.

I wish we could break the distance.
The plans we had planned awhile ago.
You and me. Meeting.
Would that ever happen though?

Do you feel the same way that I feel for you?
I know you don't.
I want you so bad but I can't.
I can't afford to throw our friendship away just because of me.

I'm like your secret keeper.
Your advicer but do you really not have any feelings for me? Not even a little?
You've told me how you feel for another girl.
Reading that text from you breaks me but still.

I told you to go after her.
but I wish I didn't.