Endless Letters

do you ever

do you ever look in the mirror and wish that you're not you?

by that I mean; you wish that you couldn't feel anything not even yourself. to be honest I somehow wonder what if I couldn't feel myself. see I'm stuck with my words. I would always wonder why do I have a soul? was I reincarnated? there are many possibilities. if we're speaking scientifically, of course we're not reincarnated. we're made from the amazing human nature stuff called sexual intercourse.

do you ever debate with yourself in your own head?

it's like "I could've picked that!" but in reality you're just sitting there and mentally debating. sometimes, I'd sit there and debate with myself just because I'm bored. people say I'm quiet. if only they hear my thoughts. it's loud and annoying. I wish it could stop. if only we could hear and see thoughts what would it be like. sometimes, my own thoughts are damn blurry I don't even know what's going on in there. I would even debate with myself that some people aren't worth waiting for. you see. I'm calm and collected about things. I have patience unless I'm running late.

sometimes I have no idea why I decided to type this.