kiss me | billie eilish

22 - and i'd love to let you go

billie's pov

F L A S H B A C K

someone is screaming. i run through the somewhat abandoned looking home, making my way to what i realise is crying. the basement?

as i cautiously walk down the stairs, i can hear who it is. "lexi?" i whisper, as i see her in what looks like a hurricane shelter, standing over.. oh my fuck..

LYLAH

then it clicked.

"mommy, come back to me mommy..." lexi cries.

no.

fucking.

way.

R E A L T I M E , A P R OX . 2 9 D A Y S L A T E R

she's gone.

my love.

my angel.

lylah.

i'll never get to propose, i'll never be able to say 'i do.' never will we have a child together.

we'll never have a child.

ever

but then there's lexi.

lexi, lylah's daughter.

i don't know how. i wish i didn't run.

i wish i didn't run away from them.

lylah. lexi.

i ran until i found finneas.

he hugged me

he smelt.. normal.

comforting.

he asked what was wrong.

i told him. "lylah's dead."

he was shocked.

i'm so numb.

but

i hope lexi is okay, i just left her there.

i ran.

here i have

my notebook. my best friend.

i write to lylah in my notebook.

maybe she knows what i'm saying.

i hope she does.

@$)&#@*$^@$* dear lylah #$^$^$(#(%*$

our time is up

your eyes are shut

i wont get to tell you what

i needed you to know

it's dark enough

the moonlight doesn't show

and all my love

could never bring you home

and i'd love to let you go

i'd love to let you go

you're all that's on my mind

and i've called a thousand times

and i have to let you go

but i love you more and more than you could know

more and more

and more

and

more

than you could know

^&(^(&#%(^%(^%($$^*#$%*^&

i can't live without lylah.

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lexi's pov

29 days ago i saved my mommy's life. i don't know why, but billie just left. i thought she'd try and help. or at least come back with help.

i don't know how to use or charge mommy's phone. mommy misses billie. i know she does.

she can't live without her.