The innocent bride and her dangerous lover (completed)

chapter 40 .

   
3 months  later:

"larib get up you have to eat ."grandma said  to me .

"grandma i am not hungry please i just want to sleep ."

"but .."

"just turn off the lights on your way out "

i know i was mean but i don,t want to talk to anyone . i heared she left but i know someone was here .

i know he is here . he said  something to.grandma and came inside and closed the door behind him.

he sat by my side but i still didn,t turn towards him.

" for how long will you lock yourself in this room and would not eat ." i still didn,t said anything .

"jan you said to me not to lose hope yet you are losing hope and look at your dark circles .

he turned me around to him .

"don,t give me silent treatment , she is not only your child but mine too and if you are killing yourself with her then also pray i die too because i can,t live without my girls.""

"stop it zayn don,t talk about death... please."

"i will beacuse you are not listening to me , not talking to me .... i am so alone ... why can,t you see it ...i  am trying to safe my girls but one's health is in Allah's hand and other is killing her self by her own."

"i am not killing my self ... but i don,t want to live .... my child can,t live so why should i and for whom ".  i said with tears.

"aren,t i anything to you ... don,t you care for me ... ".

"zayn please.."

"no please baby .. beacuse its been month and enough is enough.... you told me if Allah wants to take someone we can,t do anything , beacuse we are his people we have to go to him then why are you like this ha .... if her time is up we can,t do anything.  and we have to take a decision larib ... she is alive due to those machines for months but for how long .... isn,t death better for her."

"don,t say like that zayn please don,t ".

"but its the truth look larib for you i have called 5th doctor ,he is from paris and he is one of the best if his answer is the same we have to let her  ..... ".

i started crying 

"please zayn don,t ."

"she is also my baby and losing her kills me but i can,t see her be attach to the machine for her entire life .it will be selfish of us jan to do this to her .she deserve peace ."

i hugged him to me and cried and let out alll the pain and frustration that was in me since that day in hospital. after that day i didn,t said anything or even cried .but that bomb had to explode  and it did today .

"  ... it hurts.... zayn .... it hurts..... " i was holding him so tight to me ..

"shhh .. jan take deep breath ...."..

he rubbed my back .and consoled me.

"why it happened to us zayn  ... why it happened to us .  why our child is not becoming healthy "  i could not control my sobs.

"Allah knows his planning best larib you were one who told me this , just hope for good..... "

he kissed my forhead .

"come on get up and.offer your prayer  and pray for your daughter  health in sha allah Allah will  listen to us .".

he made me get up and i did my abulation and offered my prayer .