Going To Hell

Haven't You Missed Me?

I was empty. I felt like it was all a lie. Sally wasn't just a voice. Sally was my friend and she LEFT me because of me. She couldn't stand me asking her to shut up when she wanted to help me. I couldn't believe what I had done to her. I missed her. I shed a tear as I was lying in bed, staring blankly at the white wrecked walls. There must have been more broken souls in that room. I didn't deserve help, so why was I there?

That night I cried myself to sleep.

I was alone, empty and a total wreck. It was so dark. In my room, in my mind - everywhere.

I finally gave up and fell asleep, but the nurse woke me up as soon as the sun decided to rise.

"Wake up, young lady. Time to take your pills." she murmured

"No." I snapped. "Get out."

"Come on, don't you snap at me. Take them. Someone's at the door, waiting to see you."

"Amy? Fine."

I took them and spat some water on my top but I didn't care. I ran to the door then opened it quickly.

"AMY!" I said then hugged her so tight. "Please, stay here. Don't leave. I-I'm scared."

"Hush, baby." she said in such a cute voice. "I'm never going to leave you. Don't be scared."

She came into the room and took a seat on one of those chairs. She was looking at me, smiling. She knew I couldn't hear Sally anymore so she thought that was just making me better. But no, it wasn't. I wish I could hear her voice just one more time. I wanted her to blame things on me, I wanted her to criticise me. I wanted her so badly in my head. Amy? I loved her more than anything and she knew that but, Sally was like a part of my life because she'd been in my head for such a long time. I didn't know if that was real or not. My head was like a prison cell, that was definitely the right thing I could say about it.

So as she was smiling, I was just looking at her with a tiny smile on my face. Really tiny and maybe shy. Yeah, she made me shy because she was so perfect, yet so fragile. She got a phone call so she had to leave, as always. She was so busy doing a new album with her band, Evanescence so I didn't really want to bother her. As she left, she handed me some food. Ew.

I went back to the bed, staring at the walls. Again. Again. And again.

"When is that even gonna stop?" I said.

I actually hoped that someone, up there, listened to my prayers to get Sally back.

As I was lying down, I heard a cricket. It was the door and it got open.

A short brown haired and green eyed woman walked in. She looked definitely hot. She was wearing a white jumper and she looked at me as if she had known me for ages.

"Hello, it's me. You've missed me, haven't you?" she said.