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Lack of love

23rd November,2014

In my whole little life I have always wanted one tiny little bit of thing. Unconditional love. But I can see now that it is in fact one if the most difficult thing to achieve.

As I said earlier I would give up anything for my loved ones. I meant it. I have done it so many times.  Another won't make a difference. All I want is you people to be happy. To love me as I am, not what you want me to be. I know I'm not perfect, in fact I am the definition of imperfection. But every day, every minute, every second, every moment of my life I am spending , I am hoping you would find something good in me. Something worth loving.

Haven't I proven myself enough? Haven't I been patient? Am I not someone who you could love without wanting something in return?

Life sucks and I gotta suck it up. But sometimes it is unbearable. I was lonely in this battle before. I guess I always will be.

But still I thank God for whatever He gave me. Even if its mostly pain.

I know I sound like some masochistic sadistic. But sometimes I need a place to vent off my failures and rantings. And there's no better place than wattpad. Cz no one knows me therefore no one can judge me.

Really guys don't judge me. My whole life I have lived in fear of people judging me. I felt so inferior. For once I want to shake off that anguish feelings and feel equal to everyone. Not some disgrace. No no. Make me feel loved. Just for this once.

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