Mingkit; To Begin Again

Eleven

Ming rushes through half open door and lets it slam against the wall. His heart feels like sinking, he arrives in the entrance of the room.

"What is going on?!" his yell comes out half silent as a nurse takes careful steps from the bedside. A hospital bed. Her eyes are tell more than a thousand words. "It's time to say goodbye," the nurse says. Those words were the ones he feared the most. 

Ming shakes his head, tears filling up his eyes. A desperate no leaves his mouth too many times as he slowly walks towards the bed. 

A weak, sweet smile meets his eyes. 

"Ming wake up for god's sake!" Kit shakes him. He knew immediately Ming is seeing a bad dream. Ming opens his eyes tears falling down at the same second. 

"Come here," Kit whispers and embraces him. 

"Kit I.. This wasn't a dream.. I re-lived the worst moment in my life," Ming whispers, Kit looks at him without saying a word. He's somewhat proud he is finally telling him without having to ask. 

"I told you I lost my first love.. I want to tell you more about it. I'm not sure if you're okay with that."

Kit nods and wipes away Ming's tears, smiling a little. 

Ming takes a deep breath:"Okay so..."

"Hey love," Ming's voice shivers as he whispers, taking a pale cold hand on his hand. 

"Hi." He can barely hear his faint voice. He knows it, this is it. He's been fighting for so long. 

"I want to take you home," Ming says and bites his tongue, trying to stop the tears from falling. His love laughs a little, coughing right after. 

"Don't cry, it's breaking me," he breathes out and Ming feels his hand losing the grip of his hand a little. Ming  feels more terrified than he has ever felt. He knows his love has prepared for this moment so many months now. 

"I love you so much," Ming can't stop his tears anymore. He feels helpless. He would give anything to take his place. Another weak smile. He can see how he struggles to keep his eyes open.

"I love you the most Ming. But you'll need to live on.." he stops for a while and catches his breath to continue:"you'll need to be happy, do it for me."

Ming shakes his head a little, unable to see anything through the tears. He can't let go. It's not happening, his heart breaks into million pieces and he is going to take them with him when he leaves. "There's so much left for us to see.. I don't want to see them without you," Ming says refusing to knowledge there's no going back.

"Kiss me."

And he kisses him, gently with all love he has for him.

When he pulls back, he has his last chance to see those eyes. Those eyes that shined like stars until the last breath he took. Right after he closed them and one beautiful soul left the earth.

They're just quiet, Kit is gently rubbing his thumb on Ming's palm. His heart hurts for him.

"Ming, look at me," Kit then says. Ming does that. "I maybe can't understand what it feels like to lose someone you love, but I know what pain feels like," Kit says and sighs.

Ming nods and breathes out. "Actually Kit, I'm thankful I could tell you, you make it easy to talk," he smiles a little. He does feel relieved. At the same time it's still scary. Feelings, they're scary. 

"Let's go back to sleep, it's only 4AM," Kits whispers and snuggles closer. Hearing more about Ming's past and getting to know him, makes him a little nervous. There's secrets in everyone's life. Kit also has secrets. His dearest wish is to never share them. He is fine just listening. He's been fine alone so far. He too, is afraid of these feelings.

A/N: Thanks for still reading this, I'll keep updating.