Young life

Pain Just Pain .

Little Author note: I'm so sorry I haven't been updating, I've just been so busy, I'll try to update as much as I can. Just keep commenting and tell me things you guys want in the story, thanks, love you guys😍👌.
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YN's POV

I felt my heart break into pieces..
I thought Niqo would be the one to break my heart..
I felt like the world was coming down on me..
I couldn't breathe..
My lungs were filling up with betrayal and lies..
And you know what I did?
I ran.
I didn't really know where to go until one person came up into my mind, I called Roc. He answered, "Hello?"
"Roc, can you please pick me up?," I asked trying not choke between my tears
"Why are you crying? Wait, just tell me where you are."
"Shelton avenue" I said,
"Ok, stay there" he said then hung up, I sat on the floor and started crying even harder. After five minutes, I heard a car honking, I looked up and saw Roc. I ran into the car and grabbed onto Roc and started crying like I never cried before. I told him everything, I just let everything out, I felt if I didn't let my feelings out, I would die right there and then.
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Right now Roc and I are laying on bed, my head on his shoulder and he was playing with my hand. We were quiet for a whole twenty minutes,

"YN...tell me how you feel?," Roc said
"I can't feel anything..nothing at all..all the suicidal thoughts are coming back Roc," Tears started rolling down my face, "I feel like I'm not important to anyone, I'm always being lied to and betrayed. I just found out my best friend is still alive and she's my sister. It seems like everyone I get close to either lies to me or betray me, but no one could do that to me if I was dead. Life could suck my ass."
"Don't speak like that, everyone loves you. You're important, very important to us. You're amazing, pretty, smart, and you care for people even if they hurt you. You're very strong too , you're heart went through many things but you still can stand tall. If you ask me YN..you're pretty fucking great." I looked at Roc, I wasn't thinking about anything, I just kissed him. That was the nicest thing I ever heard for anyone. Roc pulled me on top of him and wrapped my arms around his neck. I was so deep into the kiss, I forgot everything that was happening in the world, Roc finally pulled away

"YN...we can't do this.." He said, I started crying. I don't know why I just did. I got off of him
"Do I disgust you? Am I that fucking ugly? Do you think I'm a sl-" I was cut off by him
"STOP IT! You don't disgust me, you're not ugly, ok? You're with Niqo and I don't want to ruin what you have with him, you tried so hard to get him. I don't want you to do something that you will regret, you're confused. You just need to calm down and think." Roc said , he was right. I needed to calm down, I took deep breathes
"Thank you," I said more like a whisper, he hugged me,
"Do you want to go home?"
"Yeah.." Deep down inside, I just wanted to stay in his arms, not because I love being there, only because I feel like he's the only one I could trust...After 20 minutes of talking in the car , we finally made it back to Niqo's house. As soon as I got into the house, I bombarded by Brandy, Niqo, Jordan, and Aunt Nique.. Wait .. She's my mom. She doesn't deserve that title right now, so she'll just be called Nique.

"Get off of me please, I just want to go to sleep," I said
"Don't you wanna know what's going on?" Nique asked worriedly
"No thanks Nique, I just wanna go sleep. You all can leave now." I said
I turned around and walked into my room. I laid in the bed, I felt like crying but no tears came. I heard my door open and close. I sat up, it was Niqo, he looked annoyed,
"Why didn't you tell me you were abused?" Niqo asked a little hurt
"Niqo did you expect me to come in and say 'Hey Niqo before I start loving this new place, I was constantly abused by my mom', if you did expect that then you really must be crazy," I said rolling my eyes
"You're really fucked up YN, I'm dating you so I must know everything about you, even your past," he said
"I'm fucked up? Says the boy who never told the girl that he was living with that he used to date her best friend. Says the boy who raped a girl after his girlfriend broke up with him. Says the boy who kept on playing the girl. Am I really the one fucked up Niqo? I thought your mom was supposed to come but where is she? Did you lie about that too?" Niqo face soften once I started to talk about his mom. Worry started to bubble up in my stomach.
"Niqo I did-" I was cut off by Niqo leaving the room slamming the door in my face..

Damn...I'm really a bitch..