SHADOWS IN DARKNESS

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A/N: The 'Tear of Nullity' illness or disorder is not real. Just some  ramdom fiction sickness.

Tear of Nullity, is a type of psychological disorder that starts from depression, trauma and D.I.D. When a person's will is strong enough to shoulder all pain and suffering so no one could notice, another subconsciousness awakens. At some point when a person's trauma could trigger it's D.I.D. Panic attacts are just some warnings if the trigger isn't that much of a threat to the person's mind and body. But if the trigger is too much the subconsciousness of the person awakens and it would be like a switch that shuts down the whole system. It starts from being unable to breath, chest pains, massive headache that triggers the circulation of blood in the body and the eyesight itself that could make a person's tears into blood, including body numbing until complete blindness. If the original consciousness is not strong enough to fight and live, The Tear of Nullity might cause the person to be in a coma till it builds the will to go on or could completely be blind. If it's strong enough, it all goes back to normal after being calmed and rest. In this story the two other patient as set on 07, are both brain dead patients who experienced a After Death.

If lost, the persons mind and body is dead while the heart still beats but the soul or the original consciousness still lives in complete nullity, darkness. Alone and wasted.
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I felt him heave a deep sigh. The moment he uttered Jay's name I have realized that he's trying to say something about what happened before but before he could continue I stopped him by scooting closer and embracing him tight. Though I couldn't see his face since I still can't see I knew he's in pain too.

"Jay never meant to leave you Ave. He was in a coma after saving me from being run off by a car. As soon as he woke up he tried to look for you. He ran away from the hospital once then when he was discharged, he ran away from home. Since my parents adopted him, and I treated him like my own older brother we looked for him. We went back to where the incident happened and asked around. When we finally found him, it was in an abandoned house. Crying hard calling out two names. We asked what happened to the family who used to live there but the neighbors didn't have any idea. Jay got sick since that day. He was bedridden for two months, having nightmares, screaming in the middle of the night. I don't know what happened but all of a sudden he changed. He got better and better till he decided to live on his own." he still continued. I heard him sniffle a bit. "He's still having nightmares but he never showed it. He lives making other laugh. He smiles a lot but deep inside he's had his share of suffering. But we let him be and waited till he opens up to us. He never did." He paused probably contemplating.

"I'm sorry Ave. I caused you to lose the only person that could protect you. If only I wasn't selfish, if only I didn't ran away from my parents, if only I wasn't greedy that accident never happened. I'm sorry." I felt his embrace started to losen that made me tighten my embrace. I don't know but despite being weak, the fear of losing him is stronger. When I completely lost to darkness, his voice brought me back. The fact that all I could see is pure black, I was able to catch a glimpse of light. All I could hear is his voice repeatedly calling out my name, picture smiles of him flashes in my mind, his laughter rang in my head, his sulken disapearing figure pained me that day when I talked to Jay. I can't, I just couldn't give up. I have to fight. For those who love me and for the one I love.

"You feel warm." I uttered as I nuzzled my face to his chest. "You smell so good, I feel so comfortable inside your embrace that I don't ever want to leave." I muttered despite what he confessed. Yoon felt the guilt for losing me and not being there but Jin blamed himself for everything. My parents have given their all to give me the love and warmth that I deserved, the home that I should had have. Xer, came back to be responsible for me. To help me get up. Kris was my push, he was my eyes and my ears. Henry became the first friend I made. To have people stay despite how fucked up my life is, I can't give up.