what to do with you(boyxboy)

Chapter 14

"Hey, you got here before me. I'm impressed." Damon said. Magnus was honestly shocked to see him. He didn't even know what to say.

"Yeah, I guess I just wanted to be punctual for once." Magnus gave a small smile as he looked up at Damon with a feeling of longing.

"Glad you could make it all. I'm surprised you even remembered where to go." Damon gave a look of embarrassment and smiled standing a few feet away from Magnus. 

"How was I going to forget? After everything we have done here? Not possible." Magnus gave a strained smile. He could tell it looked forced, but did it anyway.

Damon smirked as he said, "Well, yeah but... After you cut me off and started to avoid me at all costs, I thought you were trying to forget about me." Damon took a step forward as if he were going to sit down, but then changed his mind, as if Magnus would run away if he got too close. He ended up leaning against a broken lamp post that was next to the place Magnus sat. Magnus noticed he still smelled like apples and quickly ignored the thought.

"So what did you want to talk about?" Magnus was curious to know, even though he usually wouldn't care about anything he had to say.

"Look, you know how I feel about you. And you have been avoiding me ever sense you found out, you have been avoiding me. I can't do this anymore. I can't be hung up on you and your drama. If you like me, I need to know, if not." He took a deep breath, "I deserve to know, so I can let you go." Damon looked like his eyes were made of glass, they looked as if they were going to shatter at any moment. Magnus couldn't help but get up and walk toward him. When he reached him he looked up at him and wrapped his arms around Damon, slowly realizing all the things he had been pushing down, trying to forget. All the feelings he had for him.

Magnus looked up at Damon and let go. He backed up a few paces and began to speak, "I am sorry I have been avoiding you. I would be lying if I said it is because I have been busy. Don't get me wrong I was. But I could have talked to you, or send you a message, but I didn't. Because I didn't want to admit the fact that I still like you too." Magnus wanted so badly to tell him he wanted to be with him. To be held by him. To be loved by him. But he just couldn't shake the feeling that something about this whole thing felt off somehow, "But I-I just can't do this with you. Not now and not ever. I just don't feel the same way about you that you do for me. You understand?"

 Damon took a step back, out of Magnus' reach. He was looking at him as if Magnus had just told him he killed his dog. Magnus had never seen a look of such sadness and resentment before.  As if this was the worst reaction he could have had.Then it got worse. "How could you do this to me? How could you sit here and act like you were going to tell me you wanted me the way I want you, but then turn around and do a full 180 on me?!? I don't need this from you. Goodbye. And if you even care about me a little, please don't try to talk to me of comfort me. Just, stay out of my life unless it is absolutely necessary for you to be next to me." Then Damon turned around and left the same way he arrived.

It was all Magnus could do to not start crying right then and there. He ran to the car, got in the driver side and began let tears fall from his eyes. He wasn't sobbing. But slowly, one at a time. The tears came.

There was a knock on the window and he thought it was Damon, but when he looked up it was someone he didn't know. He looked but her face was not visible to him. The only reason he knew it was a girl was when she spoke.

"Open the door. I have something you are gonna want to know. I know how we are going to save Alec."