Killer (completed)

7

I got my new phone and stuff today, so we went home. The boys were still asleep so I couldn't say goodbye.

I'm going to miss them so much. Daniel especially. I am still so confused. Am I really catching feelings, or is it because my fangirl wishes are finally coming true? It doesn't matter. I'll never see him again. He'll never think of me again. I'm just another fan.

I leaned against the window and cried quietly. Grace and Stella were both asleep, in why don't we hoodies. Stella was wearing one of Daniel's beanies that he gave her. I gently pulled it off and hugged it to my chest.

The taxi stopped at a crossing in the city. The billboards were all depicting Why Don't We posters. I miss them so much it feels like a hole got ripped open in my chest.

The car started up again and I pulled out my phone, looking through Spotify to find something to listen to. Everything was why don't we. Everything.

I logged out of Spotify and went into search engine. I typed 'am I falling for him?' Into the search engine and pressed search.

Instantly, fourth three million results came up. I tapped on a website called Cupid.com ( a/n this isn't an actual website ). It came up with seven signs that your falling in love.

1. You can't stop thinking about them. Yep.
2. Everything reminds you of them. Yep.
3. You listen to music that reminds you of them. I listen to HIS music.
4. Feel happy when you see them. Yes ma'am.
5. Hate being away from them. Definitely.
6. Butterflies when you see/ think about them. Ohhh yes.
7. Start to change your personality to catch their attention. Well, I didn't wear a mini skirt and crop top just because I felt like it.

Ok. I'm officially falling in love. With my idol. Who I will never see again. Fuck. I put the beanie on my head and pulled it down over my ears. It smelled so good. I don't know if that is creepy to think. God.