The fog outside seemed to last forever. Not clearing anytime soon so for this reason they shut school. Lately there's been something up with my dad. He's been looking a lot thinner lately and in a lot of pain. I didn't know what to think. I mean it could just be him on a diet but why is he started to wear make up now?. I thought this to myself and I heard the press outside. I'm surprised they can see "no person stays in their house for more than three weeks freddie!" One of them exclaimed. That was actually true and I didn't notice until now. I stood up and continued to listen to them though I shouldn't.
"Why don't you come out and say hello?!"
"Are the rumours true?"
"Is it true you have AIDS?"
That's when my heart sunk. I grabbed the local newspaper from my bedside table and saw the cover. It was a photo of my dad from yesterday and he had came back from the doctor. He's been seeing the doctors a lot lately. I never questioned it until now. What if he does have aids?. My eyes started to cloud up with tears that threatened to fall. My bedroom door was slowly opened. It was my dad. He slowly walked up to my bed and sat down gently before cursing quietly in pain. I looked at him sadly. He looked at me and then looked at my clock "no school today?" He asked. I shook my head "no the fog is too dangerous". He nodded as he understood. I looked Down at my hands and asked him "dad......do..do you have a-aids?". His head shot up in shock. "Who told you?!" He exclaimed. I furrowed my eyebrows. "So it's true?" My heart broke, I can't loose him.
He gave me a sympathetic look. Before patting the space next to him on the bed. I walked over and sat next to him. He turned to face me and held my hands. He got nervous, "darling what I'm about to tell you will make you think differently but promise me you'll act like you don't know anything? And please keep it away from the public eye?". He asked and I nodded. "Okay darling.... well yes I do have aids. And the doctor says I have a few years left but I won't make Christmas of 91". He said and my heart sunk. My dads dying and I can't do anything to help him. "Oh dad" I said and broke down crying. Will the nightmare end?. I hugged my dad tight and stayed there for a good ten minutes.
I decided since it's my day off I'll spend the whole day with dad. Jim and joe were out today and the paparazzi has calmed down now. The thought of loosing my dad kept replaying in my mind. Every time I saw him I felt like crying and screaming at whoever gave him this horrible disease. That's when it came into my head. Paul must've given it to him because Jim is in perfect shape. I got angry,he's damn lucky he ran away otherwise me and roger would have beaten up prenter.
Did the band know? I turned to my dad who was watching the movie we chose. "Dad,does the band know?" I asked him. He looked at me and smiled weakly "they've known since 85,just before live aid and Brian and Anita have agreed to look after you when I go" he said. I'm confused "but what about Jim?" I asked. He looked at me in sadness "Mary will probably kick him out and send him back to Ireland" he lowered his voice. I jumped up. "WHAT! No she's not coming here!. NO WAY,NO WAY,NO WAY" I shouted. I'm not letting that woman anywhere near me or Jim. "Darling she owns this house and when I die she has to take it back." Dad said. "Don't speak about your mother like that" he added.
I hate this woman with my whole life. She's a careless lady who throws tantrums everywhere,including in public. Obviously mum had dad wrapped around her little finger. He'd do anything for her, though she's toxic. I feel like I need to talk to someone other than my dad. I got off the couch and made my way upstairs. As soon as I reached my room I went to my phone. I put in the digits and the line was ringing. A few moments of silence fell. Until I heard the other line pick up and a voice spoke "hello?" My godfather Elton said. "Hey Elton it's me, saf. I was wondering if I could talk to you about something?" I asked. "Oh Safina dear! Yes of course you can. Pop round! I'll start the kettle" he chirped up. I smiled as I rested against the wall. "Okay I'll be over in ten" I said and ended the call. I grabbed my jacket and walked down the steps. "Where are you going love?" Dad asked. "Oh I'm going over to Elton's for a bit. You know,just to catch up" I said and walked into the front room. I hugged my dad and kissed his cheek. "I'll be back around 6" I said and headed out the door.
The walk is only 20 minutes but it was damn cold outside. It was early February and it should snow but it didn't. I was halfway there when I heard a familiar voice call my name. "Safina! Wait up!" I turned around to see Ralph. A few days ago me and Ralph decided to take a break in our relationship. Not that we don't love each other, there was just a lot going on in our life's so we put the relationship on pause. He caught up to me, breathing heavily. He brought me into a big hug and we stayed there like That for a minute until he broke the hug. "I heard from your uncles about your dad. I'm just telling you that I'm here for you and I love you still" he said. "How did you-" I asked but was cut off by him saying "In the studio a week ago, we we're sat there when you left the room and apparently your dad asked them to tell me" . "Oh" was all I said before we started to walk towards Elton's house. "I'm gong to Elton's to talk if you wanna join" I told him. He nodded signaling to me that he'll join.
We finally arrived at his house. I knocked on the door and it opened up to show a very happy Elton. He smiled widely to see me AND Ralph stood there. "Dears! Come in,Come In!. It's bloody freezing out there" he said and rushed us into the warm house. The heat made my cheeks go red and my hands itch from how cold outside was. Elton led us into the living room where Elijah and Zachary were sitting on the floor playing with their toys. They heard my footsteps and looked up. Their eyes lit up and ran towards me "cousin safina!" They shouted out of excitement. No we are not biological cousins but we like to call each other as family because our dads are so close. I knelt down and gave them a hug, I heard Elton making 'aw' sounds and I got up.
"So loves,what did you want to talk about?" Elton asked as we made our way to the sofa. I looked at Ralph then back to Elton. "Well....I found out this morning that dad has aids and I wanted someone to speak to" I said and looked down,not wanting to make eye contact with anyone. I heard Elton sigh and I felt a hand on my leg. It was Ralph's hand,he was trying to comfort me about this situation. "Well my lovely,he's very ill and I don't know what's going to happen when he...you know goes. But I can assure you that I will be here for you, every minute of it" Elton said and gave me a side hug. " let's just make the most of it when we can, aye dear?" He said and kissed my forehead. I nodded and John Reid came in with cups of tea for us.
*time skip* (a/n: because I don't like John Reid)
I'm at home now. It's around 10:38pm and I've had dinner, thank god it's Friday so I get to sleep in for tomorrow. School has been such a bore and I know if I went in everyone would look at me weirdly and the bullying would begin again. It's not that I can't stand my own ground because trust me I can pack a punch if I want. I learnt it from the best of course,my dad. Let's hope no one will get on my nerves. Just then I heard a camera click,I shot up from my bed and walked to the window slowly. I pulled the curtains fast and flashed a light at the shadow outside, it was a man who looked like one of the paparazzi men. I shouted for my dads and they both came running inside my room. I pointed to the window and they came next to me, my dads fists clenched into balls and he started to shout. "Do you have any idea what your doing?! She's a teenage girl and your taking pictures?? You sick prick!" He swore at the man. The man spoke back "I thought this was your room! Sorry!". My dad shook his head "sorry isn't good enough!, destroy the photo and piss off!" He growled and shut the curtain. He turned to me and said "your sleeping with us tonight!" And walked into his shared room with Jim. Jim came to me and said "I'll go out and get you better curtains tomorrow love" and followed me to their room.
I laid in between my dads and couldn't fall asleep. What just happened was weird,funny but also terrifying. My dad turned to me" darling get to sleep" he said and hugged me closer. I settled my head on his shoulder and my eyes grew heavier....
A/n: sometimes I read my chapters and they are like rollercoasters, not sure what happened but enjoy :)
