𝐔𝐤𝐢𝐲𝐨 タ永唄

𝒞𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓉𝑒𝓇 7

Then it was just the three of us. Jin hyung and i. Hyung ...wasn't okay. He had never been. Ive always thought he was the most fragile of us all, his soul was too kind and loving. His glass heart had a few cracks. Im sure he used us as his only source of happiness after the world has broken him.

So i tried to hide the newspaper. I thought he wouldn't bare the news. Not after everything that had happened. But Jin hyung found the newspaper and read the news article. What happened afterwards was so much worse than i had worried about. I still remember every single detail of that evening.

After putting the news paper way, he asked when Taehyung and Jimin will come home. Told me he would make Hosoek's favorite for dinner since it was his birthday. Later that night when hyung was asleep. I went up to the balcony to get some fresh air. I.. had managed to keep my composure through everything that has happened thus far. Because I didn't want the others to see how i truly hurt.

That night i broke down, sobbing like a child under a full moon. The doctors said it was a form of post traumatic stress disorder. I guess adding so much emotional pain to the deep wounds that have caused by the mental and physical abuse of his father years ago and his mothers mental illnesses.. just was to much for Jin hyung's soul. So i left him there.

The last time I visited him, the doctors said he wasn't making much process. Hyung's mind has built some kind of wall, the doctor told me to protect him from more damage. Its like he created a illusion of what we were back then, a desperate escape from reality... i know I shouldn't say this and im gonna hate myself for it...

Sometimes i envy Jin hyung... sometimes i wish i could believe that they were still there. Sometimes i wish i could live an Illusion. However there is one thought that could ease all pain even if its just for a little bit. I can't keep myself from hoping...

That there is sometime and place far, far away from this one... in which the seven of us were still together.