my hands ached from gripping them so tightly as i sat across from natalie in the dining room. her eyes were a mess and her hair was still pinned up with small strands falling out of it. i tapped my foot on the ground quickly as my eyes reached hers and she looked around trying to grasp the right words."elena do you still.. love david..?" she asked as her hands make their way to her face wiping the tears away. i looked down at my hands and noticed just how white my knuckles had turned which made me relax them, and i nodded my head slowly.
"uh... yeah nat, ill always love david. no matter where i go in life, you dont just stop loving someone ya know?" i spoke quick to look away from her sight that was dead set on trying to read every emotion i gave off. in this moment i thought of when david and i announced our pregnancy to our friends, the love david and i shared in those moments were the highest of highs i ever felt, him telling me he never loved me... was the lowest of lows.
"of course not elena.. nobody stops loving someone, i guess what im asking was... are you still inlove with him..?" she asked as her hand slightly touched mine.
her eyes looked at me with a million questions, trying to ease her thoughts im assuming.
"i... i think so, i dont think i ever fell out of it? there was a time i thought i did but i didnt.." i siad and she bit her lower lip trying to stop it from quivering, and she nodded and took a deep breath.
"this.. all of it was pretty dumb of me i mean everyone knows its supposed to be you and him in the end.." she said giving me a little smile, but i looked at her confused like.
"everyone keeps saying that and yet.. he just told me he never loved me so i dont think that was the case nat, you should have married him you love him and he loves you! you need to go back home to him hes so so sad.." i spoke as her face cringed at my words.
"i-i know he is e, i do... and ill never forgive myself for leaving like that, but i will say... every vow he spoke.. they were towards you not me. 'till death do us part' was right at you, you noticed and so did i.." she said and i looked back at the ground.
"im so sorry.." i whispered as a sob released its way out of my voice, "i never meant for any of this if i would have known this was all going to happen i wouldnt even of came.." i said as she then shook her head.
"im sorry also elena, im sorry that i wasnt enough for your best friend. i tried to fulfill the void he had when you guys broke up but it was never enough.." she said standing up and making her way to the door.
"tell him im sorry yeah?" she spoke but before i could answer she left. i took a deep breath trying to soak all of this in.
"well that was intense.." christian spoke peaking his head around the corner earning a eye roll from me.
---1 month later---
a month had gone and passed since the whole wedding deal. i hadnt spoke to natalie since the night she came here, i also had not seen or spoken to david since he told me to leave LA and never come back. zane and heath were going to come visit for the weekend and bring me a few more of my things, only a few though, in hopes id come back. i heard david stayed reaching out to natalie, wanting her to come back home to him. he loved her. and my heart ached for him, although he broke mine.
in the time of mine and davids life we had gone from best friends to strangers so friends to lovers to partners to parents back to strangers to partners to strangers to friends and now strangers again. i often get head aches from the spot in my brain that they thought were cancerous but, it wasnt. i think of that day a lot, him holding me and then being told i was pregnant. i often think of the grief he must've went through facing my miscarriage without me, worried telling a person with memory loss would cause them to go even more crazy. the head aches had made me nauseous, but i had been all week. and it was driving me crazy.
"WHATS UP BABBBYYYYY" i heard the familiar voice of zane running into mine and christians house as they embraced me into a hug.
"hi" i giggled hugging them back tightly.
"We missed you!" heath said as zane chipped in, "so much, the house is so lonely without you around.." zane said as i hugged them a little more tighter, "i missed you guys also.."
we pulled away and we sat around catching up on life.
"Were going on tour in a few months!" zane spoke as heath nodded very happily.
"WHAT? guys that is amazing!!" i said as they looked at eachother and said in unison, "We want you to come with us" they said and my eyes widened in shock."w-wh no way i am not going." i said sternly crossing my arms.
"why not e! its 4 months from now things will be way calm by then, plus itll be me you scotty matt mariah kristen and you! come on boo dont leave me here with these love birds i need someone to keep me company!" he said pouting giving me puppy dog eyes.
"no david?" i asked and they nodded, "no david" heath said and i sighed loudly running my hands across my face.
"okay.. okay fine.." i said and they jumped up yelling as i laughed, "how long is it?" i asked and they started discussing plans with me.
"we leave in 4 months and we will be gone for two!" the exclaimed and i nodded okay. a few hours passed and we eventually fell asleep, i was between the 2 like always.
i woke up the next morning with my eyes shooting open and i felt the vomit race up. i jumped up and ran to the trash can and let it all out. the boys walked in worried asking if i was okay.
"yeah ive just been getting sick randomly the past week." i groaned putting my hand on my head, "headaches" i shrugged and zane spoke.
"bitch dont i know it i havent had one that bad since i woke up hungover a little over a month ago in miami." i said as i laughed but heaths eyes shot wide open.
"elena.. can i talk to you..?" he said with a worry look i nodded and we walked to the back porch.
"i know this might sound crazy but.. its been a little over a month since miami right since you and david?" he asked and i nodded, "yeah why?"
"and youve been getting sick for a while, randomly.. in mornings?" he asked at this point i thouhgt he was crazy.
"heath what are you trying to get at here.." i asked and he looked around, "umm.. theres like no way.. you could be .. ya know, pregnant right..?" he asked and as soon as he did i felt sick again.
i looked at him in shock for a second then my eyes widened remembering the night.
"yeah.. thats what i was thinking.. ill be back with a test dont tell zane yet wait till i get back.." he said and i nodded..
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i stared at the test with zane and heath as the digital pregnancy test was loading.
"i will be one bad ass uncle" zane said as heath thumped him on the head.
we waited and waited till it appeared.
pregnant
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