"Vien, please take me. I badly want to end me" yakap yakap ko na ang sarili habang naka subsub ang mukha sa tuhod
The world is killing me, she is killing me, society is killing me, everything
I hate that I'm too vulnerable without you
Umiyak ako ng umiyak na para bang wala ng katapusan. Ang sakit sakit isipin na 'yong taong ayaw mong mawala iniwan ka rin
"Here" napahinto ako sa pag iyak. Kinusot kusot ko ang mata ko at saka tumingala. Hawak hawak niya ang panyong nakalahad sa harap ko habang siya naman ay nakaiwas ng tingin
He's skin is so clear like what he's wearing, a plain white shirt and a black pants paired with green sneakers and a cap covering his black hair and his eyes, those eyes like mine. A dead one
"Hindi mo ba kukunin? Nangangawit na ako oh" I shook my head
"No" I don't know him and how did he find me knowing na nasa malayong bahagi ng sementeryo ang puntod ni Vien at hindi naman ako madalas makakita ng ibang dumadalaw sa mga katabing puntod
"Take it, ako na ang nagbibigay sa'yo tas hindi mo pa tatanggapin?" Saad nito habang nakatingin sa malayo. Hindi ko alam pero kinuha ko ito at bakit gano'n na lang ang kanyang pananalita.
Nang medyo maayos na ang pakiramdam tumingala ako para tignan siya at saglit nag tama ang mga mata namin pero agad naman siyang umiwas. Pinanonood ba niya ako?
"t-thank you" I said.
"Wala 'yon" isang katahimikan ang bumalot saamin.
Ano pa ba ang ginagawa niya? How do I show my gratitude by having a conversation?
"Is she your frie—"
"Paano mo ako—"
Hindi ko na tinuloy ang sasabihin ko at gano'n rin siya dahil sabay kaming nagsalita. I don't really know what to do with this kind of situation dahil hindi naman talaga ako mahilig makipag-usap
"Ikaw na—"
"You should—"
Fxck!
Again, sabay na naman kaming nagsalita. If this happens again, magiging awkward talaga. He clears his throat before speaking
"Breath" huh?
"Do you want to kill your self?" Why is he asking such thing?
If that is his question, Yes I badly want to kill myself to get rid of this shitness
Nikayap ko ang sarili at binaon ang mukha sa pagitan ng tuhod para pigilin ang pag iyak
"I'm tired....being vulnerable. I want to stop running away from her and if killing myself is the only way then I wouldn't mind doing so" I don't know but those words slipped through my mouth
"Most of these dead here fought for their life and yet you—"
I fxcking hate this
"Please stop, I don't want to hear it" I cut, if he'll just lecture me then he better just leave
"Then just die, if that's what you want to, but do you ever wonder what would this friend of yours would feel?"
Vien
BINABASA MO ANG
Till the fifth day of October (Incomplete)
Ficção Geralthree strangers with different stories become related to each one another. Finding comfort in each other's flaws. Letting go and moving on from the pain that holds their lives, page by page. The three of them set out on journeys as they seen and sha...
