Mistakes (Kiribaku)

The Envelope

Kirishima's P.O.V

The next morning, I woke up to a small sticky note on my bed side table. I rubbed my eyes checking the time; 10:32, before yawning and stretching. Rubbing my eyes, I let my eyes focus before reading the note. It read-
'Hey Ei. I went back to my dorm. Thank you for last night. I'm happy you were there for me. I'll talk to you later. Love you dude. ~Mina'

I smiled a little at the note, placing it back on my bedside table and getting out of bed. I opened my curtains letting the sunlight pour into the room waking me up even more. I changed out of my sweaty blue jeans and red t-shirt into a pair of light grey sweatpants and a white shirt. I brushed through my hair and styled it like Mina showed me. I was growing on the look, liking the way it stayed spiked rather than down. I felt more confident having it styled that way. Wrapping a white headband around my black roots, it hid my hair making it look naturally red rather than dyed. I brushed my teeth and washed my face before exiting the bathroom and packing my bag. I wanted to go mountain climbing this morning. It just felt right.

   Packing water bottles and a few snacks for lunch along with a first aid kit along with a portable charger and my phone. Throwing the bag in my back, I walk to my car and drive to the mountains. It was a nice ride. Just silence. Halfway through, I rolled my windows down and listened to the rushing wind. The relaxing smell of pinewood and fall leaves filled the car. I parked at the side of the mountain and started my two hour hike. Even if it took so long to walk, I didn't mind it. The view from the top was worth it. Once I made it there, I collapsed onto the ground against a tree and looked out at the clear sky. The beads of sweat on my head felt cooling when the wind blew through. I took off my headband and wiped my face closing my eyes for what felt like only a moment. But I guess I fell asleep. I woke up and checked the time, confused as to why one second it was day and the next, the sun was starting to set. It was 6:04 in the evening. I guess the hike tired me out.

   Rubbing my eyes, I dug into my bag pulling out a water bottle and a sandwich. I  finished eating quickly and right as I did, the sun had set and the sky turned a dark blue. Stars slowly formed across the sky like glitter, more visible as the minutes went by. I watched as one by one, they started popping into the sky. Then I looked back at the one shining the brightest. My favorite star. My mom used to tell me that stars were the souls of all the good people in the world. She always saw the good in a person no matter what they did. She believed everyone had a star in the sky. I like to believe hers is the brightest one.

   "Hey momma." I started, laying down on the ground and looking out. "I miss you." I paused for a second, trying to collect what I was going to say in my mind. "How did you do it? You always saw the good in people no matter what. I tried to see the good in him I really did. But he hurt me momma. I don't know if I can forgive him." I was crying now. I always cried when I went up here. It was bound to happen. "He wants me to forgive him. A part of me wants to forgive him too. To give him a second chance. But the other part of me is screaming that I shouldn't. That he hurt me and he's going to do it again. I'm so confused momma. Just please, I know you can hear me. Please, give me the right choice. I don't know what to do. Do I give him a second chance or push him away? I don't know momma. I just don't know." I leaned against the tree and let the silent stream of tears fall down my face. I was okay with this. I was okay with crying. As long as nobody saw me.

   After another hour of sitting there and talking to the stars, I packed up my bag and started my hike down. It was a lot faster going down but would still take about an hour and a half. I made it to the bottom by 8:32 and hopped in my car ready to fall asleep. Tomorrow, I figured I would study to make up for all the time I wasted with him this week. I didn't miss to much but it would be a good refresher before classes started back up on Monday. Parking my car and rolling up the windows, I dragged myself inside. Stopping by the front to check my mail, I grabbed nothing but a small white envelope with my name printed on the front. I walked to the elevator and opened it, reading the small paragraph on the printer paper. It read-

    'Eijirou Kirishima. Let me start this off by saying I'm proud of you. Through everything that has ever knocked you down, you stood right back up and faced it head on. And I admire you for that. I love every little thing about you. The way you smile, laugh, breathe, and the way you just exist makes my heart skip a beat. I know I may have lost you by now. Just know that I am regretting every second. I love you. And I'm sorry for breaking your heart. Thank you Kiri, for teaching me what love is. Without you, I don't think I would have experienced true love. You don't have to take me back. I wouldn't ask you to do that. Hell, you don't even have to talk to me again. I just want you to accept my apology. I won't be able to live with myself if I know that I cause you so much pain and couldn't make up for it. I will love you forever and always.
                        ~Katsuki

  
   I didn't know what to do. I stuffed the paper in my bag as the elevator doors opened and I walked to my dorm. I opened the door and was met with a spiky haired blonde. He stood silently, staring at me. I dropped my bag by the door. "Leave. Now." I moved from the door. " I take it you didn't read the envelope." I stuffed his hands in his blue jean pockets. "I did read it for your information." He walked to the door. "So?" He looked down at his shoes. "So what?" He continued to look at the floor. "Do you forgive me?" His voice cracked between the words. I sighed. "You can't just do something like you did and ask for forgiveness the next day. I don't know okay." He started shaking then looked back at me with bloodshot eyes, a desperate look on his face. "You have to give me a second chance. This is screwing me up and I can't live with it. I just want your forgiveness. I know I can't have you back. I'm trying to accept that. Just please, forgive me." "I'll think about it. Leave." He smiled a little, wiping his face before opening and closing the door right back. I flopped on my bed and stared at the blank white ceiling. "Momma, I could really use your advice right now."

Bakugou's P.O.V

   You can love someone so much. But you can never love them as much as you miss them. Kiri hasn't been out of my sight for more than two minutes and I already miss him. It feels like my soul was cut in half. I made it to my car and satin the drivers seat trying to collect myself only to start sobbing. The warm, salty liquid started streaming down my face as I gripped the steering wheel as hard as I could. When you love someone as much as I love Ei, it hurts to watch them walk out of your life. But what hurts more is knowing you are the reason they left. You are the reason for yours and your partners' sorrow. And knowing that makes everything ten times harder on you. Because you know you hurt someone you love. And that was the last thing I ever wanted to do to him. So this is me facing failure. This is me putting everything on the line, knowing I might loose. And I'm terrified. But anything worth having is worth the risk.

                      And he is worth everything.