February 2020

Clarke Griffin (The 100)

Show: The 100

Character: Clarke Griffin

Prompt: Character dealing with death over time.

Written and Posted on: Feb. 9th 2020

Disclaimer: I did not exactly put the deaths all in order. I put them how she would discuss them. Also, I gave a bit of happiness at the ending, spoiler alert.

Word Count: 688 Words

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Life is not about dying, it is about surviving through the death of our loved ones. However, on The Ark we were told legends about the history of earth, while we struggled to keep going on. Life was easier on The Ark, needless to stay. We did not fight like The Grounders do or take people like The Mountain Men. We were good people, at least I thought. In The Ark, I only lost my dad. That death did the largest toll on me. However, it was nothing compared to the deaths that happened since getting on the ground. The first death was my childhood friend, Wells. He was murdered by a little girl, one who also died. Charlotte suffered pain and did not have time to deal with it, she committed suicide instead of being taken by John. He was accused previously for Wells death, but he didn't die.

When Anya died, it was the first death I have seen from a grounder. She bled black blood and was fine with dying. It was not something I had expected. Then, there was the time when we used the dropship as a weapon... There were Finn's victims, when he tried to find me. I killed him, I did not want him to end up with all of them cuts. I did it to save him the pain, though Raven hated me for awhile about it. However, The Young Nightbloods was a whole different discussion. It was messed up what happened to those children, future Heda or not. Lincoln was another death that hit close to me, he was one to let his clan bleed, metaphorically. He did not care about us being from the sky, because of Octavia. Then, he basically became family to all of us. My mother, Abby died and that was just something very hard to get over. I did not give up over that, though. I wanted to be the best for her, even when her fight was over.

Then, I chose to save my people who were kidnapped by The Mountain Men. Those men lived in a mountain-like place. That place was a horrible place, called Mount Weather. I ended up exposing (which killed) that population of the Mountain Men. The parents, the kids, the people who made life pretty crappy. I gained that name, Wanheda, because of causing that. They say Wanheda means the Commander of Death. Which is correct, I am the Commander of Death. People die around me so much, if it was not me, I don't know who it could be. I stuck around the longest and life is still carrying on for me. Been through death so much, I died inside myself, even more.

But the hardest death, the hardest thing that I have been through was the death of Lexa. She was not only the commander, but she was an amazing person. She was overall the person that caused me to have this will to live, the one that told me that I could be a leader. She was a force of nature and died so young. But her fight was over and she made it through to do her job. Her spirit lives on.

The shocking thing is that I made it, I survived and now I am a mother. Madi ran into me when I was in Eden. She was the only Praimfaya survivor of the nightbloods. She was the potential Heda and Octavia's second. She was the reason why I kept going and I swear, all my loved ones sent me her. They gave me my person and someone who made life way better. Also, she kept me on my toes.

I am Clarke Griffin and this here is my story about how death made me who I am.