Rhythm

Poem-66: Secret love letter

Hey there!
Don't know when did I start to fall for you. During initial years I've seen you fall for many other girls and didn't feel a thing. I know a lot about you ,not because you were quite open and genuine about being yourself but mainly because I've been a keen observer. I bet you must not know that much about me, I bet you only know as much as you've seen. Never thought that somewhere in the corner of my heart I had feelings for you, which just needed a path, a reason, a spark to come out. It's been years knowing you. And all this time, you were never mine and will never be. Not even for a sweet small period. Which I'll either cherish or mostly regret afterwards. Past couple months have been crazy. The whole of December I couldn't get you off my mind. Literally like 24hours how can you be obsessing about one person- sounds crazy, isn't it? I experienced what is getting those good kind of butterflies in your stomach feels like. I was giving it my all in this game. And you were just playing along. Loving you from a distance was beautiful but now that you know I like you, I don't want you to know that I'm head over heels for you. That December was magical. But whatever it was, it was one sided. And if I'd kept the game going on, I would've definitely ended up wounded. Your ocean eyes are filled with beauty and love for others. May be in next life if I'm lucky enough... I'll have you.
But for this one century, I must bury my feelings, deep down, keep them locked and throw the key far far away.
I must end this one sided sad play. I must let you go because you're way too busy with other girls. Lucky is the girl who has your attention. You deserve better, and she will offer you that better. I have nothing to give you. I'm full yet empty. Brave yet coward.
For this life... It's impossible.
I must exit
I must exit
I must exit.