Today was a day where Calum would draw me a nice bath that we'd share as his parents were busy at work.
And after, he'd let me borrow some of his clothes and then he'd prepare us lunch and we'd watch his boring movies as promised.
And this should be perfect. But it isn't. Because thoughts of Michael overpowered the thoughts of Calum. And no, I wasn't okay with that. The refusal to talk to Ashton was strong as I figured letting going of him would mean letting go of Michael. And yeah, that sounded selfish but I just didn't want to deal with it right now. Because Michael shouldn't be a top priority.
I don't want to be that Luke again. I'm a changed man. No need for a night light or protection from Calum
because Michael's a no one.
And that night, when Calum went to turn the dim light on, I told him I didn't need it and he eyed me curiously because he didn't seem to understand that I'm not afraid of the dark no, I'm afraid of Michael but, Michael is me and that makes me afraid of myself
and maybe I'm just my own worst nightmare.
Calum stopped me from tearing down all the mirrors the next day-- not breaking them of course. Michael was all the bad luck I need.
It was because I couldn't face myself that I'm not who I want to be. Because looking at Calum, I think he could have so much better.
Calum sat me down and I stared at the ground, desperate for no eye contact.
He asked me what's wrong
but what's a question with a thousands answers?
I didn't want to tell Calum nothing because that nothing was something and oh,
that something affected me a lot.
So, I told him everything
and Calum decided to drop the subject.
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Calum's Boy (CAKE)
Fanfiction[Sequel to Lost Boy] I thought I controlled them. But they seemed to have a mind of their own.
