Callens shadow

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Callen's pov:
Again waking up as the girl pleads with me to help her, to please not forget her. My breathing is fast and uneven, my whole body is sweaty and gross. Making the shower earlier more than useless, just like the last months.
„Here." a soft voice says while handing me a glass of iced water.
„Thank you!" I say grateful and quickly empty the glass in one go.
„You look more awake than all the other times." she says while taking a seat on my bed with a questioning look towards me.
„Got to sleep way earlier than usual. You look beautiful though, like always." i answer her. The compliment had escaped my mouth without meaning to as well. It's the truth though, she looks absolutely breathtaking. Her usual pale cheeks have gotten red again after my complement. Those pale icy blue eyes shine from the moonlight that shines into the room. Her hair is hanging down loosely and not in her usual bun. They are slightly wavy and frame her face absolutely perfect. She kinda looks like an angel, no idea why at first I was afraid when I saw her.
„You talked with Nate, I hope he told you that you aren't crazy." she starts softly.
„I was afraid he said something unprofessional when you got so frustrated and angry. That's why I stepped in to hopefully smooth out the situation a bit." she adds with slightly red cheeks. Without having realized it, i had gotten myself closer to her, my hand softly caress her cheek, which prompts her to blush even more.
„I did talk with him, and no, he didn't say something unprofessional. He was just mad that I haven't told him that I was having nightmares or flashbacks." I answer her, still holding her unbelievable soft cheek in my right hand.
„Oh, that's good I guess." she says and turns her head a bit so I have to pull my hand back from her face. Feeling the room slightly get a bit tens I decide it's time to get the baked goods out. I haven't eaten anything before going to sleep, so I kinda am hungry anyway.
„I got something for us!" I tell her while standing up to walk to the kitchen. I however quickly stop in the doorway.
„You will be here when I come back? Right?" I question a bit afraid she might just leave. She however nodded at my question with a smile on her lips, so I quickly make my way to the kitchen to grab the two bags from the bakery. As I walked back into the room she has let herself fall back on the bed, so her back lays flat on it.
„I hope you like them!" I say as I hand her one scone as well as a blueberry muffin. Feeling kinda silly for doing something like that. But as soon as I see her face light up in delight I think I definitely did the right thing.
„Thank you! I really love scones! And don't get me started on any sweets!" she says with shining eyes. She now is sitting cross-cross-applesauce on my bed. Her whole face shines in pure happiness as she takes her first bite of her scone. Feeling like a complete creep for watching her like that, I decided to take a bite of my muffin instead. And I have to say, they are absolutely delicious! That bakery is definitely going to see me from now on way more often.
„They taste absolutely delicious! From where did you get those!?" Maya asks me in complete delight.
„The bakery is called the Cookie lovers. So next time I guess we should try some of those!" I answer her. Not realizing that I just said next time, indicating that there will be a next time. Her cheeks immediately turn red again after that statement.
„Next Time?" she asks me shyly.
„Yeah! I mean, I would like it to see you again." i say unsure of myself. I never was good with woman, i mean yeah I had my fair share of girlfriends and hookups, but nothing really serious. And something about her is drawing me in. I can easily see myself care a lot for her, getting to know her, and yes I can even see myself settle down with her. It sounds absolutely crazy, of that I am sure, but it is what it is.
„I would like that to." she whisper softly. I even nearly missed it, but that sentence alone made my heart beat way quicker.
„Would it be possible to meet up during the day time as well?" I ask her since I decided earlier yesterday that I would move in with Sam for some time.
„I don't know. I am afraid that this could get dangerous." she sadly says, her eyes already wet with unshed tears. Without thinking I just pull her into my chest, hugging her tiny body into my much larger one.
„Don't be afraid, i promise i will do everything in my power to keep you safe." i tell her honestly. And I definitely mean it! No one will lay even a finger on her! Not on my watch!
„I am not afraid something might happen to me. You are the one i am afraid for. You have quit a lot of enemys." she tells me strictly. That makes me wonder though. Why is she worried for me? And from where does she know I have a lot of enemies
„You don't have to worry about me. I am a big boy and can watch after myself." I try to calm her down, not liking her to be in distress, especially not because of me!
„A big boy that got shot only a few months ago. You nearly died in my arms!" she says and stands up. Seeing her going for the window I quickly pull her back into me.
„Don't leave! Please! Don't leave me!" I say sounding and feeling completely devasted, the panic of being alone also gets more and more by every second that passed. Something in me feels like I am going to break down completely if she leaves me.
„Maya, please!" i say already feeling my eyes start to burn with tears in sheer panic that she just leaves and won't come back again.
„Callen, hey look at me. I am here! I stay, it's okay." she softly tells me. She seems surprised that I would react like that, but how couldn't I? No idea why I feel that strongly for her, but the moment she went to leave it felt like someone has ripped out my own heart!
„It's okay." she again whispers while softly pushing me on to my bed. With another push I lay in my bed, now finally realizing that i am shaking like a leave while tears stream down my face.
„I am here." she says and softly wipes away my tears. She looks at me a bit unsure before laying down right next to me. Without a thought I immediately pull her flash against my chest. I don't know how long we were laying like this, but she was just holding me as tightly as I held her.
„Please don't ever leave me!" I whisper into her ear absolut vulnerable.
„I won't, you may not see me but I am going to be there." she answers me. I could also hear the promise in that sentence.
„Sam, my partner asked me to stay with him for some time. Am I going to see you there?" I ask her even though I am afraid of that answer.
„Please." i add in a whisper. She lifts her head from my shoulder and looks at me with wonder.
„Why are you staying with your partner? Is everything alright?" she questions and I see the fear on her face.
„Hetty bought me that house because I would move quit a lot. And since I slowly come to remember some things from the flashbacks, I feel like she was hiding something from me. Something important, but I don't can grasp what it is." I start to tell her, however drifting off to the flashbacks again.
„So you feel betrayed by her." she finished my prior explanation in understanding.
„Yeah! The last months I tried to have as little contact with her as possible, but the house is another step for that. Sam also realized that something is going on between Hetty and me, so he offered me to stay at his place." I explain to her. Her eyes stay the whole time on mine, which makes talking a bit complicated.
„I don't know if I can sneak into his house. He has kids and i don't want them or him to feel unsafe." she answers me a bit conflicted.
„Then I am staying here, or at a hotel or something like that." I answer without a thought. She however just shakes her head at me.
„You are right, if you think someone has betrayed your trust, then you shouldn't stay at their place. And Sam is your best friend, he needs you just as much as you need him." she says and places a finger on my lips since I wanted to interrupt her.
„I also can't stay somewhere where I can't see you." I whisper softly. She sighs deeply at me and just as she wanted to answer my phone starts to ring.
„You should take the call, it may be important." she tells me and sits herself up, near enough to still be touching but far enough so I can't pull her back down.
„Nothing can be more important than that conversation." I tell her, not caring that it is completely crazy to think and feel so about someone who just drops into my bedroom randomly.
„Just take the call, i need to use the bathroom anyway." she says with a smile that doesn't reach her beautiful eyes. Since she hurries into the bathroom before I could stop her, I quickly pick up the phone.
„Mister Callen! I am sorry to interrupt your night sleep, we however got a case. Mister Hanna is going to pick you up any minute now." she says in apology.
„Sure, bye." is the only reply on my side though. Like is said earlier, I feel betrayed by her, so why stay friendly with someone you don't know if you can trust or not. Maya came right out as I ended the call with a small frown on her face.
„You need to go, right?" she questions. I nod at her in reply.
„Sam is going to pick me up any minute." I sigh, definitely not ready to leave her. Especially when I don't know when I am going to see her again!
„If you don't want to sneak in, I could sneak out?" I ask her hopefully. Her expression softens at my words, but shakes her head at that idea.
„I try to sneak in without disturbing them. But I cannot promise." she says while I once again pull her into my chest.
„I leave my window open." I tell her, softly pushing a hair strand behind her ear. That makes her look again at me, and without thinking straight I lean down and kiss her soft lips. She seems surprised at first, but then she relaxes into the kiss and wraps her arms around my neck. The kiss stays sweet, and i wouldn't lie if I say it's the best and meaningful kiss i have ever had.
„Please be careful out there!" she says in a whisper when I put our foreheads together.
„I will. You stay safe as well. And I will be waiting for you tonight." I tell her right before there is a knock on my door. Guess Sam didn't want to wake the whole neighborhood by honking like he usually does. I softly peck her lips again, before slowly leaving for work. Of course not forgetting my stuff by the door!