The Way She Sliced Her Pear

Monroe

Monroe

"How was work? You missing working for Dex yet?" I asked Kane

Trying not to make the situation awkward enough. But who was I kidding. There I was sitting on his couch, breast feeding his baby, with the thoughts of him almost penetrating me against the cabin wall. I had only seen Kane once, shortly after Ellie was born. Since she had to stay in the Denver hospital for a few days we were already back in Nebraska before they were discharged.

As Kane sat next to me on the couch I saw his eyes become glued to my chest.

"You know Monroe, don't feel obligated to help Reese. I know she's going through a lot right now but if it's too much for you I can surely hire a nanny." Kane said

"You already do so much for your own family and I know you're wanting to take on full time at the store." Kane said with concern still staring occasionally at my chest

Kane cleared his throat seeming to have a hard time looking at my eyes. He seemed uncomfortable or maybe even a little turned on.

"Reese needs help, and she is most comfortable with me here and if I need to put a hold on being full time at the store for another few months then so be it." I said "Kane, when I got here today Ellie was screaming uncontrollably with Reese just sitting on the couch unaffected by the crying." I said quietly "she needs help and I'm here to give it to her." I said with a level of sternness in my voice that I've never expressed towards Kane.

"Would you still be helping her if it wasn't for that afternoon in the cabin?" Kane said just above a whisper

Guilt stricken my conscience and I couldn't believe Kane would hold that over my head. My mouth dropped and for a second I was speechless. I did feel guilty for that day and maybe I wanted to help her because of my shameful conscience. I just never thought of Kane mentioning that to me in such a blatant manner.

"Kane, like I said, Reese needs me and I'm here for her." I said looking towards their bedroom

A few seconds past.

"She seems to be doing well with you. Ellie never took like that with Reese." Kane said gazing down at my breasts.

"She has a slight latch issue, nothing I can't coach Reese into doing on her own. The stress and depression she's going through isn't helping her supply either." I said

I looked down at Ellie, she was asleep and detached herself with her mouth open. She seemed extremely content and satisfied. I slowly covered myself, knowing well that Kane was watching my every move.

With Kane still sitting next to me he positioned himself differently on the couch. Trying to make himself appear to not be turned on.

"You know, in the early 1900's Wet nurses were extremely common." Kane said "But of course that's when formula wasn't invented so if you couldn't breast feed your baby would die." Kane said

Just then Reese came out of the bedroom.

"Kane, not everyone is a history buff like you. All I want is for Ellie to get what's best and that's breast milk, whether it's from me or Monroe." Reese said defensively

"I agree Reese, I was just stating an interesting fact that's all." Kane said with slight tone of defensiveness.

Reese came to me picking up Ellie from my hold. "Oh my gosh, this is amazing Monroe. I wish you could just spend the night and feed her when she wakes." Reese said

Then looking up at me.

"I'm kidding guys" Reese said

I forced an uncomfortable laugh out knowing well that she wasn't kidding.

Reese sat with Ellie in their lazy boy adjacent to the couch Kane and I were still sitting on.

"How does four hundred dollars a week sound?" Reese said "It would just be like three days a week for like 4-6 hours." "What is today? Tuesday, so let's have you start Thursday." Reese said

"Since you can feed her for me I might just schedule a facial sooner than later. This winter has done a number on my pores." Reese said

A smile beamed over her face.

"I don't think that's how it works Reese." Said Kane with his eyebrows raised "I could be wrong but don't you want to be around baby and to have her feed off of you over time with the help of Monroe's."

"He's right Reese, but I'm sure it won't take me long to coach you." I said "It'll all work out, this is good." I said

I looked at the clock that was above their television.

"I got to go pick the boys up from school and then pick up Millie from my mom's." I said

"I'll see you Thursday then Reese." I said with a smile as I showed myself to the front door

"Thanks Monroe." Kane said as he slowly got up from the couch

"It's decent money yes, but I'm not sure it's a great idea. I see Reese just using you over time. And if you ask me I think it's weird that you breast fed Ellie." "Even with your explanation of the history of wet nurses I still think it's weird." Dex said on the couch

"Dex, you would think it's weird, you're a guy." "You don't understand a women's natural urge to breast feed, even if it's not her own." I said raising my voice slightly

"Whatever, I guess as long as you keep the same hours helping Becca out at the store then that's fine." Dex said "But don't come crying to me when Reese starts using you for more than just "mental support"." He said as his attention went back to the television.

A few commercials played on with us both in silence. Dex let out a breathe of air and laid his head on my lap.

I put my hand on his head then started to massage his scalp.

"Hey did you ever have your period last month." "I just remembered how I dumped my load in you at the cabin." Dex asked

"Yes I got my period, I probably didn't get pregnant since I'm still nursing Millie occasionally. That sometimes has an effect on fertility."

That was slightly untrue.

That morning at the cabin when they went to the slopes me and Reese went to town for not only a spa day but visited a pharmacy for the day after pill. Reese was very supportive in my decision with not having another baby. She promised she wouldn't tell Kane, knowing that he would go to Dex and how disappointed the news would be to him.

"I see, well we can always try next month or after your done breast feeding." Dex said

"Or we can discuss a vasectomy." I said with a high pitched voice

Dex flew his head off my lap.

"Vasectomy!" "I'm telling you right now Roe, I'll never have my man hood taken away from me." Dex said angrily

"Nothing changes with your man hood other than your ability to make a child." I said "It's an outpatient procedure and ensures us to never have a baby again." I said

"You still perform the same, you ejaculate the same, it's just your spunk is infertile."

"I don't care Monroe, I'm never doing that, end of discussion." He said with a deep tone, flying his hands in the air.

"I birthed two children for you and being thirty two raising three children, having another kid is not something I want to do." "You know I won't take any form of a hormonal birth control and having you do this is the least you can do." I said

"I said I'm not talking about this anymore."

He stood up making his way to the kitchen to make himself another drink.