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Jealous

Billies pov
Charlie.
Charlie.
That fucking bitch.
Ok maybe she's not a bitch, she's probably very nice. But seeing her flirt with Alex like that, like I used to, made me crazy. Alex is convinced I'm straight. So even if she did like me (which she definitely doesn't) she would probably never tell me because she thinks I don't like girls. But I like someone right now who just so happens to be a girl. And just so happens to be her. Ignoring how much I actually liked her was really hard. Now I'm seeing other girls go after her and it's becoming impossible. I'm her freind. Her best freind. I'm supposed to be happy for her. But how can I encourage her to be with someone if I want that someone to be me. I can't possibly watch someone else kiss her, watch someone dance with her at parties.
I don't wanna be the third wheel. I couldn't do that. Maybe I'm being dramatic. I probably am. The drive home from the party was probably awkward for her but I was too consumed with my thoughts to think about how we were sat inches away for 20 minutes and didn't say a word to each other. I saw her look at me a few times. She looked confused and upset. Her eyes looked red like she had been crying. I wanted to ask why but I didn't want to remind her of anything that had happened at the party until we got home. We were dancing and having fun and I went away for a little while, come back and see her crying outside with a girl.
What the fuck? Am I right?
Once we finally got to her house I stopped the car and looked at her. Why does she have to be so beautiful? It's not fair. I could stare at her all day. Even when her pale cheeks are dripping with tears.
"Billie" she said quietly pulling me from my day dream.
"Can you stay with me tonight please.."
"Um I-"
"It's fine if not it doesn't matter anyway I-"
"Yes"
"What?"
"I wanna stay with you" I said. I really did want to spend time with her. I can't be mad at her for my stupid feelings. It's not her fault she's perfect.
"Are you sure you seem kind of mad at me..." she trailed off when she saw me smiling.
"I'm not mad"
"Your not?" She looked relieved.
"No, lets gooo it's cold"
"Okayyy" She dragged out the word and got out of the car.
She was really drunk and so was I to be honest. As soon as we got in the house she went straight to her room.
"I'm gonna get changed" her words were slurred.
"Yeah okay" I yawned and sat on the couch.
Alexandra's POV:
I was so tired and confused and scared.
Well I was scared. That man was so scary. I still felt shaky and nervous. I have to write this down. I grabbed my old little journal and write down everything I was feeling.
I was just so tired and my hand writing didn't even make sense.
"B-billieee" I said quietly.
"Yeah?" She said and came in my bedroom.
"I'm sorry I'm gonna gonna um s-sleep"
"Ok that's ok"
That's the last thing I heard and
I just fell asleep. I don't know what billie did but I was just so tired.
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Heyyy!
Sorry my last few chapters have kind
of sucked. I'm not very good at smoothly segwaying into the interesting bits