3:07 A.M

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by iitsbrittni

by iitsbrittni

⚠️WARNING THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS MENTIONS OF SELF HARM⚠️
I wake up to someone barging in the door. Blue also hears it and perks up. I look at the time. 3:07 A.M. Someone opens the bedroom door. I squint my eyes. Payton?
"Payton?" I ask.
He doesn't respond. He turns on the light. He is shirtless and smells of alcohol. He has hickeys that I didn't give him. Lipstick is all over his face.
"WHAT THE HELL PAYTON!" I yell.
"Brittni, hi. How you doin Babygirl." He says slurring on his words.
"Don't fucking call me that." I say.
"Pff ok whatever." He says and lays down on the bed.
I get up not wanting us to fight anymore and grab Blue. I grab my phone and charger along with my glasses and walk out of the hotel room. I knock on Jake's door. He opens it. I start crying.
"Hey hey what's the matter? What happened?" Jake says embracing me in a hug.
"Payton came back shirtless, smelling like alcohol, has hickeys in places I didn't give them, and has lipstick all on his face." I say.
"Come in. That dick. Don't worry Brittni. You deserve better." He says and we go into his room.
I put Blue down and he looks at me confused.
"It's ok." I say to him.
He runs over to the couch and lays down. Jake looks at me.
"I only have one bed in here. You can sleep on it and I'll sleep on the couch." He says.
"It's fine I'll sleep on the couch." I say with tears still falling down my cheeks.
"Hey look at me. You are beautiful. You have a perfect body and a perfect personality. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. If Payton can't see that than he doesn't deserve you." Jake says while hugging me.
"Thank you." I say with my head buried in his bare chest.
"No problem Brit. Now get some sleep, we meet our wonderful supporters tomorrow." He says smiling.
I smile back.
"Alright. Thank you." I say.
"Anytime."
I go into the bedroom and Blue follows behind me. I get under the warm blankets and soon fall asleep. I dream a terrible nightmare. I wake up several times throughout the night and Blue was there to comfort me.
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Someone knocks on the bedroom door.
"Hey Brit, it's about time to get up we have a big day ahead of us." Jake says.
"Um ok."
Why am I in Jake's room? Within seconds everything comes flooding back in. I take a deep breath in and let it out. I don't have any clothes and I'm not about to go back to Payton's room.
"Hey Jake, um could you go and get my suitcase and bring it over here?" I ask.
"Of course."
I hear the door open and then shut.
Jake's POV
Brittni asked me to get her suitcase which I completely understand why. I knock on the door. No answer. I knock again. No answer. Just as I'm about to knock a third time the door flings open. I see Payton. He doesn't look like Payton though. He looks like someone that just lost their best friend. Someone that just lost the love of their life.
"Her stuff is in the bedroom." He says and moves aside.
"Um ok."
His eyes are all red and puffy. His face is a swollen mess probably from crying so much. I go to the bedroom and Brittni's suitcase is open. Everything seems organized and packed but I look around just incase. I go into the bathroom to see if she has any makeup or something in there. Something catches my eye. Something shiny on the ground. I look and it's a blade. A razor blade. It's not clean...it's bloody. Has Payton been cutting over this? It's his fault but still he shouldn't be cutting over this. I take the blade with me so I can throw it away in my room so he can't find it again. I zip Brittni's suitcase up and walk out of the room.
"Take care of her." Payton says.
"I will. Don't do anything that you will regret later." I say.
"Tell her I'm sorry."
"That's something you should say to her." I say and walk away.
As soon as I get back in the room I throw the razor away.
Payton's POV(oooop! Didn't see that comin did ya?)
Flash back to last night
Underlined means its a memory ok?ok.

"Hey...umm I'm going to go somewhere. I'll be right back." I say and practically run out the door avoiding questions.
One of my old friends found out I was in Miami and wanted me to go to a party he was throwing. I didn't want Brittni to go or anyone else because I just want some me time. I'm not going to do anything with anyone else though. I pull up to Bryce's house and walk in. It smells of alcohol, weed, and sex.
"Hey bro. Haven't seen you in a while." Bryce says and we do our handshake.
"Aye." I say back.
"There's some drinks over there and some girls over there." He says and laughs.
"I have my own girl." I say as I'm grabbing a beer.
"So she's not here right now. Have some fun." He says to me and pushes me.
"Um no."
"Dude you used to be so fun, what happened?" He asks.
"I fell in love."
"Ew." Bryce says and walks away.
I ended up drinking one to many drinks and hooking up with about 3 different girls. That's when I knew I done messed up.
Flashback over
I am in the bathroom crying. Brittni is either in Randi's or Jake's room. One. Because I hurt her. Two. Because I messed up. Three. Because I don't deserve her. Four. Because she deserves someone better. Fi-knock knock. Who is at my door. I get up and slide a hoodie on. I open the door. Oh it's Jake.
Brittni's POV
"Hey B, I got your suitcase." Jake says and opens the bedroom door.
"Ok thank you, can you take Blue?" I ask.
"Yeah. Come on Blue." He says calling Blue.
Blue walks out of the room and follows Jake. Jake shuts the door and I take a shower and end up wearing a white crop top, black ripped skinny jeans, hoop earrings, and my black and white checkered Vans. I check the time on my phone. As I do that I see my lock screen. It's of me and Payton. We were making dumb ass faces. I smile and sigh. I miss him. No. I haven't even been away from him for a full day yet. I do my normal makeup routine and brush my hair. I look in the mirror. I sigh. Is there something wrong with me? Why did Payton cheat? I'm too fat. I'm ugly. I'm not good enough.
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So...some shit went down. I warned y'all I was like "Some shit is going down on tour." Some of y'all didn't believe me...I think. Anyways. Hope y'all enjoyed this. Update on the crush thing...we are going to have a Winter Formal at my school and my crush...we shall call him Pineapple. He doesn't have a date yet sooooo....I am going to start talking to him more and more and then bring up the winter formal and then maybe he will ask me to go with him...this is probably not going to work but I'm going to try anyways. Love y'all❤️❤️
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