Love & Forbidden secrets.

Chapter thirtytwo.

As Zayn shifts further in to his seat, the table becomes silent.

I know its petty and childish to act like this but only yesterday, Harry and I were laying in bed together whilst he tells me that he loves me, well in such words. Then as soon as Naomi gets back, he treats me like I'm nothing. He's avoids me, hardly speaks to me infront of Naomi, and pretends to love her, right infront of my eyes... Does he really love me? He can't of, if he's suddenly so cold.

I take another huge gulp of my whiskey and coke as soon as the hurtful thoughts enter my head.

He's probably used me because his preppy little 'girlfriend' who has cheated on him, left for a weekend to see her 'father' so he sweet talked me and played me in the sickest way possible to have sex with me. I should had known that he wasn't decent in the slightest. The fact that he can drop me for a bitch he hardly likes, proves how much of a twat he is.

My palms start to sweat and my body starts to shake. I begin to wonder if drinking alcohol is the right thing to do, seeing how I become the Hulk when I drink when I'm angry.

I realise how silent it is when I pop out of my hurtful thoughts and see us four all awkwardly sitting there waiting for someone to talk.

I feel Harry glarring at me, in the corner of my eye.

"Why don't you take a picture, it'll last longer..." I snap my words towards the playa holding the blonde barbie. Not caring if it makes the situation more awkward.

He roles his eyes and looks away.

"Natalie, don't talk to my boyfriend like that..." Naomi innocently talks to me like a child.

I scoff and take another gulp of my drink, that being the last bit.

"Is everything okay?" Zayn leans in to me, gently whispering. My eyes darting to his cherry lips, noticing their brightness even though the club is fairly dark.

"Never been better babe," I say louder than intended... Contrasting to his whisper.

Harry's head snaps to towards my direction once again. What's with him? He's already made up his mind. He doesn't want me. That's obviously the end of the what ever we had going on.

"Why don't we go get some more drinks?" Naomi says to Harry. As if she wants to seperate me and Harry... Not that I care.

"You and Nat go" He dismisses her, removing his arm around her. Causing a frown from the barbie doll.

I go to argue against it but Naomi's up faster than an lightening bolt.

"Come on" Naomi grins at me and pulls my arm up.

I stand up and quickly pull down my dress that has risen up, flick my hair behind my shoulder and crackle away from the table in my girl almighty heels.

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Harry's P.O.V

My eyes follow the most beautiful girl in this whole club, heck, the most beautiful girl in new york as she confidentally strolls away from the table, every eye on her which makes me want to rip every guy's eye's out.

Naomi next to her, looking like a bag off potatoes walking next to Angelina Jolie, except not even Angelina could live up to Natalie's standards.

The way she looks tonight, not only incredibly hot but I want to lock her in a basement where no man can dribble over her and try it on with her.

She's not sensible when she's drinking, especially when she is angry. She's stubborn, her walls build straight up when she thinks they've been destroyed. But she's mistaken. She thinks I have dropped her for Naomi, but I have no choice. As soon as Naomi came through that door this afternoon I felt like I had just jumped off a cliff. I knew that Natalie and I couldn't be with eachother the way we were this weekend. And wow, did this weekend get to me. It broke my heart to pull away from Natalie when she walked in with me and Naomi in the apartment. I wanted to grab her, kiss her, tell her how much I love her and how I will protect her, that we will be out of this place in a month or so, but I couldn't. I know what will happen if I done that, Naomi is a sneaky, smart, as much as I hate to admit it, suspicious, bitch that will quickly figure out that Natalie and I are cheating on her and throw us out. Leaving us with no money, no apartment, nothing. The only reason I haven't told Naomi to go and fuck herself is because of Natalie. The night she cried her eyes out in my arms in her bedroom that night, I promised her that I will help her pay off that shark that's threatening her family in London. I'd hate to see her get hurt, it breaks my heart when she crys. I don't have that kind of money to come up, but Naomi does. And she isn't going to give me it if she's suspicious that I'm cheating on her. Especially with Natalie, I see the way she looks at Natalie, pure jelousy because she knows how inlove with her I am. I just can't show it. I'm doing this for her.

Maybe it's because she keeps up a front about her strong, confident and independant she is, but I know she actually is not. Which makes me want to protect her even more. She's only attracting fools that want to play their game by tearing down her walls and leave her heart broken.

"Harry?" Zayn brings me back to reality as I have to unfortunately tear my eyes off my beautiful girl that is too busy cutting her eye at Naomi that she doesn't realise how many men are starring at her at the bar, bastards. I can't blame them though.

"What?"

"What the hell is going on between Natalie and you? Didn't you two have a thing?" Zayn pulls his eyebrows together in confusion.

I go to tell him how I have to play a little game for Natalie's sake but then decide against it as Zayn isn't good at keeping secrets at all. He'll tell Perrie, Perrie will tell Natalie, Natalie will ask me and I won't have the power to turn her down again then the plan will fuck up because Naomi will find out about me and Natalie.

"Nah, why have a burger when you can have a steak?" I say the most nastiest words that feel digusting on my tongue which makes me want to take it all back.

Zayn shakes his head and gapes his mouth slightly. "Come on bro, have you seen Natalie? She's ten times better than that stuck up twat you're with tonight. Didn't you say you were done with Naomi?" Zayn proves how lucky I am, well, was to even earn Natalie's love.

"I'm just looking after number one mate..." So far from the truth.

Zayn looks at me like a complete knob and sighs.

"Anyway," I change the subject, "What's up with you? Why so moppy?"

"Split up with Perrie." Zayn quietly says whilst starring at the table.

I gap my mouth. Wow, I thought those two would actually last.

"Why?" I ask quietly.

"She fucking cheated on me" Zayn tells me as he begins to shake. Shit, he looks pissed as fuck.

"What...Perrie? But she is so loved up with you? I mean... Are you sure?" I can't believe it.

"Certain. I found some boxer shorts that aren't mine, round her flat and I saw a man leaving her apartment as I was walking up to her door" He grinds his teeth against eachother.

"Sorry, man..." I speak full honesty, those two were perfect for eachother.

"Let's just have a good drink up, yeah? I wanna forget about lying chicks, they're all users. I just know not to wear my heart on my sleeve now, I'm gonna start playing your game. You're sure doing well for youself; two chicks at once..." Zayn pretends to have an attitude neither of us have.

He's not objectifying women much...

Just on count, the girls return to the table with drinks. My beauty carrying another drink that only a woman like her could handle.

"Sorry we took so long, I had to go toilet!" Naomi squaks whilst she crawls in next to me, me wanting to shift away just by her presence.

I feel my heart drop as Natalie shifts closer to Zayn. My blood heats as I see Zayn smirk at Natalie as she blushes.

Two broken hearts are not a good combination on alcohol.