Love & Forbidden secrets.

Chapter twentyfour.

"What do you mean?" Harry breaths heavily, joining me on the ground, sitting on the crispy leaves that has escaped its branches.

I sit there holding on to my legs, arms wrapped around my knee's to stop the cold air from swimming up my body.

Harry begins to draw circles on my back.

I can't begin to explain how much I want to confess to Harry, but seeing as he has just lost his dad, I can't really tell him  I killed someone, by accident.

I shake off the thoughts full of honesty and change the subject, Harry needs support more than I do.

"Never mind... How are you feeling?" I ask whilst I gently tickle Harry's free arm that isn't on my back, the one restinf on his lap.

We must look very strange, sat down on the cold, dirty, leaf-littered floor in the middle of the dark woods.

Harry looks up at the night sky, exposing his long, dominant jawline and his long, curly eyelashes.

He then looks at me and I begin to see the tears build in his eyes.

"I wished him dead Natalie" He says flatly, no emotion on his face despite his watery eyes.

"What?" I scrunch my eyebrows.

"When we were in Niall's flat, in the bedroom during the party. I said I'd hope he was dead, this is my fault. My words... My words came back at me!" Harry raises his voice and suddenly stands up and turns his back to me.

Why doesn't he want me to see his vunerable side.

My head swims with pityful thoughts for Harry, why does he have to blame himself?

I repeat his action and stand behind him, lightly squeezing his shoulder.

"Harry, this isn't your fault. Please don't blame yourself. You were upset and angry, you didn't know what you were saying-"

"No Natalie! I done this! If I didn't run away and leave my home then I would have been able to piece things back together!" He falls on to his knee's and covers his face with his tattoed hands.

I brush back his curles and suddenly he grips my thighs and wraps himself round me, sobbing to my legs.

I stand above him and hold his head against my stomach.

"Harry, look at me" I bring my palms to his cheeks to meet his red face full of tears.

"You are the most kindest man I have ever met, you wouldn't hurt a soul and I know that. Your father left because he knew that if he stuck around, he would had shredded your family further apart. He knew he wasn't a responsible father at the time, so he left. You were so brave to try to keep your mother and your sister from falling apart to, but you were one, young boy that couldn't do it alone. It's not your fault for being brought in to a broken family, but you still managed to turn out in to beautiful, care-free, fun spirit who has honestly led me in to the light" I speak firmly to Harry, peering in to his eyes as he hangs on to my every word, his green eyes glowing in the dark.

"Harry, before I met you, I had nightmares every, single night and saw nothing but darkness. But when I met you it all went away. When I'm with you, I forget my old life. So if you think you haven't done any good...You're mistaken... You've certainly saved my life" I finish my soft speech by letting go off his face and pull my sleeve up my arm, hold my arm out infront of his face but I can't bear to see his facial expression to I turn my head and stare at the nightsky.

He doesn't say anything at first. All I feel is Harry's soft touch, trace my arms full of old scars.

"Oh..Natalie..I.." He begins but soon gets too choked to speak.

He begins to stand up, still having a firm grip on my arm.

"I'm not proud of it, but Harry, when people are in pain, they become too selfish to think about what the people around them will feel because they feel ruled by the painful thoughts swimming in their head. Suicide was once my only way out..."

Harry traces soft kisses along my arm but soon stops when I mention the very thing that stole his mother.

"But I hoped that there would be some magical way out when I came to New York... And it was you" I say pulling my arm away from Harry's touch, to wrap my hands around his neck.

He places his arms around my lower back and smacks his lips on to mine, his plump, warm lips covering my mouth.

"I love you" he breathed in to my mouth and I suddenly felt a radiation of energy swarm over me, butterflies almost exploding out of my stomach and a instant smile on my face.

It felt so right.

"I love you so much" I say back as I pulled away from the kiss and rested my forehead against his.

I peered in to his emerald eyes and I knew this is all I wanted for the rest of my life.

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-SofiaMarie