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"but jack... i think i... had feelings for you too..."
"are you serious? wait.... really? for real?"
"i'm sorry i didn't tell you but-... as you said... i was scared too"
when finn said that jack felt his heart becoming heavy. it felt like more than million tons
they were lying there in silence looking down at the sky when jack suddenly jumped up and changed the atmosphere
"well!! okay! the past ist past! right?"
"uh.. yes, i guess... the past is past..." finn said a little surprised about jack's mood change and mumbled the last part of his sentence
why am i so sad about jack wanting to forget all our memories. i mean... they mean nothing to me. no they don't... do they? finn thought after jack went back inside. finn decided to stay outside just a little longer. he had to think about everything.. he had to think about what just happened. about what jack said.. about what he said. there were so many things at once. but the most important thing he thought about was
who is jack grazer to me?... a friend?
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SUNDAY, MARCH 26TH, 2020
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it was not even 6 a.m. but finn was already awake. he did sleep, he just woke up earlier than usual. i'm thinking too much... he was lying there next to the boy who made him feel the way he felt now. it was a feeling which finn forgot how it was like... he already felt it before. but that was so long ago
there was not really a way to describe his feelings. but if he had to say what it feels like with only one word... it'd be
different.
"i can't just lie here and do nothing" he whispered to himself. so he went outside on the balcony which wasn't really big but it was big enough for him to get some air. because air was what he needed right now
he was standing there staring at nothing. his hands were resting on the cold railing. so many things were rushing trough his head. how would he ever be able to talk to jack normally again. how can he say something without stuttering or with his hands sweating or not knowing what to say
"hey" finn winced by the soft voice appearing behind him. it was jack "oh god!! don't scare me like that!!" finn said "you should be sorry for waking me up" jack said "oh. i didn't mean to" "it's okay" the smaller boy smiled and rested his hands on the railing too
"aren't you tired? it's so early" finn asked "aren't you tired?" jack replied "touché" the capricorn said and smiled
jack looked at the ground because he didn't know what to say "listen... i don't want to ruin our friendship with what i said earlier. sorry..." jack then said "oh- well... actually i'm happy you told me" "you are?" finn nodded
"so we're cool?" jack asked "sure" both of them smiled
"we should go back inside" finn said after two or three minutes "yeah. of course"
and so they went back inside and got some more sleep, even if they didn't have a lot of time to sleep
wyatt knocked at the door three times and then went inside without waiting for jack or finn to tell him to come in "jack? come we need to talk" he said. jack yawned "in a minute" "no, now" "ok, ok. i'm coming" jack got up and followed wyatt in the bathroom
"why are we in here wyatt?" jack asked "i heard you" "wh- what the hell are you talking about?" jack said with a confused look on his face "on the balcony... i heard every single word" and then jack remembered well, shit
"oh... that was nothing" "no. it wasn't nothing and i want to help" "help?" he repeated what wyatt just said "why would i need help? with what?"
"i want to help you find out what you and finn are" wyatt said and jack laughed "oh! wyatt!!" he said still laughing "i know what finn and me are. we're best friends and i'm super happy about that. there's nothing more to say"
"do you think i'm stupid? do you think i can't see what's going on?" wyatt asked. jack froze. he stopped laughing
"listen to me. me and finn are best friends and nothing more okay? maybe there was more... but that was so long ago"
"you know... some things last forever" wyatt said
ha! as if i'd feel something for finn. that's impossible. i feel nothing!
"you wanna help me? well, you can help me! just stop, okay?!" jack said and got a little louder with every single word that came out of his mouth
"o-okay... sorry" wyatt replied shy "sorry wyatt... you know how i react to things i don't want to talk about" "yeah. i'm fine" they went out of the bathroom and waited for the others to get up
when finn woke up and realized that jack wasn't there anymore he immediately got up and looked for jack on the balcony. then he went out of his room and saw him and wyatt sitting on the couch reading the script "oh hi finn" jack said "hey" finn replied
"are you practicing?" finn asked them "what does it look like to you?" wyatt replied "pretty much like practicing" "you got it!!"
"can i join you?" "sure come sit with us"
and so finn got his script and sat down next to them. he read the first few senses and realized that luca was actually just like him. the personality of the character finn was gonna play matched his real personality "hey! luca's just like me!!" he then said
"really? well, that's a coincidence" jack said and finn smiled
"hey jack! i found a scene where luca and liam are talking wanna read it? like together?" finn asked "yeah sure! and wyatt has to say what he thinks"
"i'll start" finn said
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AUTHORS NOTE
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i reaaaaally don't wanna go to school tomorrow!! ewh!! i need help pls. anyways, i'm having so much fun talking to everyone on this book and generally on this app :) thanks guys! also i'm super hungry. like, super super hungry. pls bring me food
- sophia <3
