Can it be true love...? [WangXian] ✔

Chapter 15: Their song

Wei WuXian will probably never forget this feeling and this moment. He had hoped to die without pain, for example while he was sleeping. Fortunately, Lan Zhan was there to hold his trembling hand.
"Lan Zhan I can't breathe, I can't breathe!" He panicked and even started to cry, which didn't make the situation any better.
Wei Ying could feel how the greedy claws of the evil spirits within him grabbed his weakly beating heart and literally crushed it.
"Lan Zhan it hurts! I don't want anymore," he sobbed.
Lan WangJi tried to help and protect his husband somehow, but there was nothing he could do.
He coughed up blood, which then dripped from his lips. The blood was darkened and looked anything but healthy, and it was thicker than normal blood.
"Wei Ying. Should I try to get the blood out of your throat? Maybe then you can breathe- Wei Ying!", The blood didn't stop dripping from the mouth. It was terrible to watch.
He died, his body really gave up completely.
"Wei Ying everything will be fine", Lan Zhan pulled the younger one to himself "you will get a nice place in heaven and-", then both had to start crying. Lan WangJi stroked his long hair and kissed his temple, forehead and lips several times.
"Wei Ying ... I love you," the older one breathed, noticing that it was slowly coming to an end.
"I will only love you," the words were hardly understood with tears. Lan WangJi had never cried so much in his life.
Wei WuXian could hear everything clearly, wanted to comfort his husband and cuddle with him, it hurt so much to see him like this and not to be able to do anything.
His vision became blurry.
No not now, please don't. He wanted to see Lan Yuan grow up, and possibly Jin Ling, the child of Jiang Yanli and Jin ZiXuan.
The door opened. Lan XiChen with Lan Yuan came in.
The couple had given the boy to his uncle so he didn't have to see this.
"Xian-gege!" He screamed, he really screamed.
He was terrified, this scenario was scary for a child this age.
How Wei Ying would have liked to hug and calm the boy now. Why was this death so painful?
"Xian-gege loves you", he would have loved to say that to him now, but this sentence could only exist in his mind. He was too weak to speak.
Wei WuXian himself felt how
his eyes closed,
his body went numb,
his breath stopped
his heart stop beating and
his soul left his body.
He was dead.
It was a feeling of redemption.

Many people shared different opinions about Wei WuXian's death.
Some say he was guilty and destroyed his body all by himself, and the others just feel sorry for the second brother of Lan's twin jade, who has been in his room for days now, drowning his grief in training. He tried to perfect his cultivation.
"WangJi please don't start again like back then," Lan XiChen had brought a plate of fruit so that his little brother could eat something again. He's been meditating for days now.
XiChen stood behind his brother, from whose shoulder the elegant white robe slipped, revealing nothing but bloody cuts. Lan XiChen took a startled breath and carefully removed the fabric from his battered back. "Brother" Lan WangJi made a face like a scared puppy. He didn't want Lan XiChen to be angry.

"Shh everything is fine I'll just clean the wounds okay?"
"Hm. It's not bad"
"Even if you may not be in pain, which I can hardly imagine with the depth of the cuts, the wounds have to be cleaned so that they cannot infect bacteria. Because of this, blood poisoning can also occur," the older one explained while he moistened a cloth with hot water and put a little raw alcohol on it.
"That could burn okay?"
Lan WangJi closed his eyes and let it go through it hurt so badly.
"So", XiChen smiled and just put on the last bandage "Now you don't need to worry anymo-", the 23 year old was not allowed to finish speaking because his little brother seemed to give up meditating to the end of the world and fell weakly into his arms.
"Wei Ying," he breathed.
"Everything is okay WangJi, he takes care of you from above"
"No, I want him with me, I want to touch and kiss him," he breathed on. "WangJi you know this is not possible", XiChen caressed the younger one.
"I don't know what's going on," Lan WangJi put his face in the older one's shoulder "It's a tight feeling in my chest, but I can't cry anymore, I can't do it anymore."
"You know, there is a time when people just become numb, it is no longer possible for them to cr-", but then Lan Zhan clawed at his older brother and stayed there. His whole body was trembling.
"I'm so sorry WangJi. If I could I would bring him back to you," XiChen hated to see him sad.
Lan Zhan only buried his face further in the older one's shoulder.
"XiChen", the voice was shaky and not authoritarian as usual.
"Yes?"
Lan WangJi first swallowed that loo in his throat
"I used to sing and play a song with Wei Ying. Can we do that?"
"Of course, if that cheers you up a bit," Lan XiChen smiled meekly.

●FLASHBACK●

To celebrate Lan WangJi and Wei WuXian's wedding day, he wanted to cook something outside for his husband and the child they raised.
It was before Wei WuXian got so sick, or where the symptoms were only mild, like constant freezing or sudden nosebleeds.
He hummed a tune and murmured a text as he added more of the chilli spice to the pot that stood over a fire. It was already dark, but it was warm outside and the stars on the sky were clearly visible.
Lan Yuan was raging outside. Behind the little house in which they lived was a large area that was comparable to a garden and safe enough to let the boy play in it.
Wei Ying felt a warm body pressing against him from behind and arms that wrapped around his waist.
"What are you singing there?" Lan WangJi wanted to know.
"Oh ah, I don't really know that myself haha but let's eat!" he giggled. The food they ate could only be eaten by the two adults, it was much too spicy for A-Yuan.
"Xian-gegeee it's too spicy!", He was quickly supplied with milk, which relieved the burning sensation on the tongue.
Wei Ying and Lan Zhan snuggled up in front of the fire and watched the stars deep into the night while A-Yuan was playing outside.
"Come little kids have to sleep now," Wei Ying picked up the three year old and brought him to his bed.
"

But I'm still not ... tired," Lan Yuan yawned and snuggled closer to his Xian-gege, who just kissed his little forehead and then disappeared outside like on gentle paws.
With Lan Zhan he enjoyed the warmth of the fire again.
He sat between the older one's legs and began to sing a little lost in thought. The same as a few hours ago.
"What are you singing there again?" "I ... don't know, it comes from my head"
"Hm. It sounds nice. Let's write it down," Wei Ying nodded eagerly and got the paper, brush and ink. Lan WangJi listened and wrote. Then they sang it together.
Both had previously had no idea how well their voices complemented each other.
They sang this song on every occasion. They also played it often with their instruments. It was...

their song
他們的歌

|| I think you guys know the song but just in case someone wants to listen to Wu Ji while reading or just doesn't know it ||

●FLASHBACK END●

"No I can't," Lan WangJi interrupted his brother's voice.
Lan XiChen's voice was deeper than Wei WuXians, so it sounded wrong. "What's wrong WangJi? Did I sing something wrong?"
"I can't, no it sounds wrong"
XiChen took his little brother in his arms, which was rare.
"We don't have to do it", he smiled "This is your song, not ours".

||Oh god it was hard to write how Wei Wei died without crying. >~< And yes I know Lan Zhan sang/hummed the song the first time not Wei Ying.
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