Life am I right?

South and north carolina(south)

North p.o.v
I was walked down the halls of the work place to my brothers office. I was bringing his food since he didn't want to bring his own.

I walked up to the room knocking on the door.
"Come in." I herd him say.

I walk in with the food.

"Did you really just bring food after I said I didn't want any."

"Yeah. Cuz you said you would eat something yesterday and then you said you forgot so I brought you something."

"Just give it to me."he said lifting up his non-eye see through glasses. I looked at his face and saw his pitch black eyes. He just got up and picked the food up from my hands and placed them on his desk.

"I want to see you eat it."
"Really?" He questioned.
"Yep." I say solemnly

I watched him as he smelt it he gaged a bit from it. But he open the plastic bag that was holding fork. He picked around at his food a bit before looking back at me with puppy dog eyes.

"If you can't do it I'll do it for you.!." I say trying not to shout.

"Ok,ok,ok, but do I really have to do this?

"Yes. You haven't eaten in a week your  practically skin and bones at this point." I say trying not to sound upset or hurt.

He put the fork fulled with food in his mouth he looked like he was about to spit it but he swallowed it. I left his room feeling satisfied.

South p.o.v
I slid up to the trash can after N.C leaves. I was holding the empty trash can on my lap with my head looking down. I gages until the food was out I looked at the plate. I dumped the whole plate into the trash. (Of course putting his glasses back on first.)I walked out of my office into the bathroom and started to rinse
my mouth of the throw up.

I walked back to my room with Nikita(N.C) out of my room.

"So why were you in the bathroom?"

"I was using it of course." I say calmly.

"Let me see your trash can."

"What- why?" I asked.

"Just do it." She said with a stern look.

She goes I the room with me as she looks at the trash can I look up to see her face. She had a look of pity and disappointment.

She looked away from the trash can to me.

"So you didn't eat the food I gave you?"

"I wasn't hungry so it's not my fault."

"Simone(S.C) you need to eat you haven't been eating lately. Are you sure you don't need to see a therapist or talk to me about it?"

"I'm fine." I say giving her a big smile.

"I just wasn't hungry this week so it's fine." I say reassuring her.

She left without a word.

THOUGHTS OF DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!

To be honest if I must. I really do want to die I want death to come sooner rather than later.  I thought about hanging my self but that wouldn't help much it would only just make it painful. I thought another time about getting shot to death but D.C banned me from every shooting unit. Another time I thought about over dosing but..... Colorado did.

That dumb*** getting us all put off of drugs.

I hear my stomach growling but I just ignored it and go back to work.