i walked through the silent empty halls, my head hanging low. it was lunch time meaning everyone was in the cafeteria but i didnt wanna go in there, it was way too crowded and loud. mattia hasnt talked to me for about a week, hes back to how he was before he even knew me. he doesnt show up to any classes and whenever i cross through the parking lot he doesnt even look at me, he continues to talk to alejandro as if i dont even exist. this entire week ive occasionally seen him in the bathroom with alejandro smoking, like the first time i talked to him.
alejandro always roll his eyes or just looks at me ignorantly whenever i pass by them and mattia doesnt even look at me. normally, if ale literally did anything slightly mean to me mattia would be on his ass about it but now he just acts like im not even there. he obviously sees alejandro glaring at me or scoffing but he doesnt do anything.
i dont know what i did or why he doesnt like me anymore. was i not good enough? i started to think alvaro was right and every little nice thing he did for me was fake, he just did whatever he had to do to fuck and then once we did, he completely ghosted me.
ever since mattias been distant ive been alone most of the time and overthinking constantly. i started smoking weed, i remembered that mattia said it calms you. he was right, it almost makes you forget everything from the past. it brings me some type of weird closure, and that was all i needed right now, closure.
i walked into the bathroom to see mattia and alejandro standing across from eachother, leaning against the wall on the opposite side of the bathroom. they were laughing about something random. alejandro had a joint in hand, they were passing it back and fourth. once their laughing died down alejandro noticed that i had walked into the bathroom, he glared at me and scoffed. mattia noticed this action and looked over at me then right back to alejandro, continuing their conversation.
