*ON HOLD* Started With A Dare | Harvey Mills

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Casey's POV

We were sat there, in each others arms, looking up at the dark sky. It was honestly beautiful, the atmosphere surrounding us felt so surreal. It was magical, the stars twinkling above us, forming shapes in the sky, it amazes me.

"Don't you think it's crazy?" I started, breaking the silence between us. It wasn't an uncomfortable silence, more of a 'taking a moment to process being in each others arms for the first time in ages, and appreciating every second of it' kind of silence.

Just by the way he's holding me, I can tell he was longing for this moment just as much as I was. He drives me crazy, being away from him has only made my feelings for him grow stronger. Sad thing is, he doesn't feel the same way. Maybe he was longing for this moment in a friend way, just cuddling with me like old times with no feelings for me at all.

I can't exactly force him to return my feelings, who would love me anyways? I'm a wreck. "Hello? Casey?" Harvey interrupted my thoughts with a puzzled look on his face.

"Oh sorry, I just zoned out." I giggled, trying to brush it off. "What's crazy? And what were you thinking about?" he questioned, clearly curious as to what was going on inside my head in that very moment.

"How we're here, with each other. Who would've thought?" I finally replied. "I'm honestly shocked, I wasn't expecting this at all. But I'm so glad that we finally reunited, I never want to be without you again. It was horrible, I feel horrible. I completely left you and then treated you badly. I bailed on you so many times just because of something I'm too scared to say. Truthfully, I don't deserve you, I don't deserve any of this. Knowing I put you through so much killed me, it still does. Day by day I would think about you, about what I've done, and how I so desperately wanted to go back in time to when I was still here, with you." I could hear the pain in his voice, and his eyes.

Gradually, my eyes started watering. Collecting my thoughts, I tried to process everything, I tried to reply back but the words wouldn't leave my mouth. Before I could finally speak, he continued on.

"I never meant to hurt you, even though I didn't have a choice about leaving, I still feel terrible about it. Every single day I would rant to Max, telling him how horrible I felt, how much I missed you, how much it hurt me that I hurt you. Just know I never, ever stopped thinking about you. You were on my mind 24/7. Casey, you deserve a best friend that would treat you how you deserve to be treated. You deserve better than me. I-" she cut me off before I could even carry on.

"Don't even think about finishing that off. Harvey, we've been through this. Even though we've had our arguments, you still mean the entire world to me. We deserve each other Harvey, I don't want anyone else. It killed me every day arguing with you, being away from you. I wasn't myself, I felt like I had to pretend to be someone I'm not to impress others just so I had people to talk to. When I'm with you, I'm myself, I'm happy. You make me feel so many things that I can't even describe. And when we were far away, I'd think about all that, about how I feel the way I do when I'm with you, or how I'm longing for your touch when I'm without you. Let me tell you it's made me realise things sooner, it terrified me, still does because I really don't want to jeopardise our friendship over it. You've done nothing but make me happy, please never put yourself down like that, you're worth so much." I rambled, but I was telling the truth.

He looked unsure, I'm assuming he's not believing that he actually makes me the happiest girl alive, or that he deserves me. He does, we deserve one another, we're practically the same. When we first met we just bounced off of one another, the conversation never dying. We have a connection, I hope he feels it too.

It grew silent, I figured he was just processing it all. I couldn't help but stare at him, his hazel eyes gleaming, I get lost in his eyes every time, his soft plump lips that I so badly wanna kiss. There's so much about him, I'm madly in love with him. Should I just tell him? What if he rejects me? all these questions spiral in my head.

He looked up at me, blushing. He just caught me staring, now I'm blushing. My stomach was yet again bombarded with butterflies, but I wasn't complaining, I love this feeling.

We sat there staring at one another for a few minutes, smirking at one another. Until we both leant in at the same time. Omg is this really happening? before I could think further, our lips collided. The kiss started off slow, but then we started kissing harder, it was filled with so much love and passion from both of us. I could feel him grinning against my lips as I'm doing the same. He feels the same, I'm so happy.

After a few minutes of us getting lost in the moment, we slowly pulled away, our lips making a pop sound after separating. Still with smirks on our faces, we stared at one another. I need to tell him, this seems like the perfect moment.

"I love you." I tell him, I love him so fucking much. His smile grew wider, he's so beautiful. This gave me all the reassurance I needed. I'm so happy.

"I love you too." we leant back in and kissed.

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sorry this is bad. i'm extremely tired and I wanted to post.

I know I said I was going to post days ago, but I've been getting extremely bad headaches, I'm so sorry for that.

I hope you enjoyed it though, thank you for everyone thats reading!! I'll proofread it later or something.

Hope you've all had an amazing day/night!!