Does It Matter? (boyxboy) Intro

Does It Matter? (boyxboy) part 6

 Hope you like the next part!

I cant think of someone to play Elijah so if you have a suggestion let me know.

Pic of Stephan cuz i havnt posted one of him yet.

song is I Knew You Were Trouble by Taylor Swift

Tanner ~POV~

As soon as Jessie stormed off and drove away I headed for my room. It wasn’t because I felt like crying, I mean I was sad that I had hurt Jessie, It was more because I didn’t want to see my brother. I could hear Stephan yelling after me.

"Hey Tanner wait! Tanner I’m sorry, let me explain…." I didn’t need an explanation. My brother was an idiot and I didn’t think id ever understand why. Why he decided to bring his homophobic girlfriend here to meet me. Why he would even start dating a girl like that.

I slammed the door to my room and threw myself on my bed. I wasn’t about to cry, I told myself. I felt like a total dick. I had kissed Jessie back every time he kissed me. I even allowed him to do perverted things to me; I didn’t pull away or tell him to stop. I actually like it, all of it. Then, as soon as he’s called my 'boyfriend' I push him away.

What was wrong with me? I liked Jessie didn’t I? After Tyler I hadn’t wanted to date anyone. I had given him everything, literally. I hadn’t really expected it to last but when it did end I was crushed.

I was trying to protect myself. I didn’t want to get hurt, I had convinced myself all jocks were the same but maybe Jessie wasn’t like that and I needed to I’ve him a chance.

Someone knocked on the door.  

“Go away!” I yelled.

“It’s me Elijah, open up” he said.

“It’s not locked, you can come in” I said back. I heard the door opened, the bed sank under the weight of my brother. Elijah crawled up beside me and laid down. I looked over at him, his golden eyes looking at me from under black bangs.

“What do you want?” I asked.

“Is that anyway to talk to your favourite brother?” he asked with a smile. Elijah, 13 and yet I still felt he knew more about life itself than me.

“So I met Katrina” he said.  I put my head in my pillow. “Ya know maybe you should have heard Stephan out.”

“So he could say what? ‘I’m sorry for dating someone who won’t accept you?’ ”

“Like I said you needed to hear him out. Stephan really likes this girl. She’s really nice and their perfect together, except for the obvious.”

“So because he lives here, I’m going to just have to put up with her and her phobia?!”

“No, he’s trying to help her. I mean he’s trying to make her…none homophobic.” It made me feel a little better to know that but I still didn’t totally like the idea of not being informed. “I also heard about um the guy you were with.”

“You mean the one that I really liked and screwed up because I’m a fucking idiot? Ya he was here”

“So what are you going to do? I mean about Jessie, that’s his name right?”

“What the hell!” I said sitting up. “How do you know all this?”

“I came home early today, I was coming through the kitchen door and well...I think I walked in on something I shouldn’t have. I just watched everything from that point on.” I blushed; my 13 year old brother saw all THAT!

“Oh, so your not wireded out are you?” I asked.

“No, Jessie’s really hot so I say good for you” I blushed again. My younger brother was also an in the closet Bi.

“Well if you did see everything then you saw how I let him leave. What the hell do I do now?”

“Well you could apologize and explain” he said.

“Explain what?”

“That your scared, tell him why, tell him the truth and trust me hell understand. And if he is still upset after that well I can think of some ways to make him happy” he said winking. I shoved him and he lunged at me as we wrestled before he pushed me off the bed.

We both laughed at the other. Elijah was right, I needed to face my past sooner or later. If I wanted Jessie back, I was going to have to break down my mental barrier first.